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A rough patch but doing ok.

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Hi my fellow quitters :) i'm coming up 5 months now which is amazing, still have to remind myself that i was a smoker not so long ago!

It's funny because although i am 100% confident in my quit and have no desire to smoke again in my life i nearly had a wobble today!! A tiny wobble but still a wobble. I didn't want to smoke but as i watched my friend smoke it just looked right and i could almost feel the feeling of holding the roly between my fingers and raising my hand to take a drag.....:eek: It seemed tempting actually. The feeling was a very DEEP longing feeling.

The thought stopped right there. I know whats happening..i'm feeling a little lower than usual (my 12 yr old is son leaving on monday to live with his dad after a long and lonely day in court working things out..., an on off relationship of 4 1/2 years that has come to a blunt and unhappy ending.....oh and my horse has another leg injury...:( ) So is it any wonder i thought about having a smoke! If i could go running that would help, sorry i'm having a right depressing moan here which i don't want to do! Apart from attention seeking here the point of the thread was to remind the wobblers out there that it really is possible to overcome the awful times without reverting straight back to nasty habits.

I'm feeling better for that now, thanks for reading. xx

p.s on the positive side, being non smoker is so much more attractive !

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Hi my fellow quitters :) i'm coming up 5 months now which is amazing, still have to remind myself that i was a smoker not so long ago!

It's funny because although i am 100% confident in my quit and have no desire to smoke again in my life i nearly had a wobble today!! A tiny wobble but still a wobble. I didn't want to smoke but as i watched my friend smoke it just looked right and i could almost feel the feeling of holding the roly between my fingers and raising my hand to take a drag.....:eek: It seemed tempting actually. The feeling was a very DEEP longing feeling.

The thought stopped right there. I know whats happening..i'm feeling a little lower than usual (my 12 yr old is son leaving on monday to live with his dad after a long and lonely day in court working things out..., an on off relationship of 4 1/2 years that has come to a blunt and unhappy ending.....oh and my horse has another leg injury...:( ) So is it any wonder i thought about having a smoke! If i could go running that would help, sorry i'm having a right depressing moan here which i don't want to do! Apart from attention seeking here the point of the thread was to remind the wobblers out there that it really is possible to overcome the awful times without reverting straight back to nasty habits.

I'm feeling better for that now, thanks for reading. xx

p.s on the positive side, being non smoker is so much more attractive !

Hi Angel

not much to say but proud of you for not giving in and being strong ...hope you take heart from this and crack on now to freedom ...... you have just won a huge battle so hope you are very proud of yourself:)

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Angel,

I am so sad for you. just awful .

and your post was so strong despite how you must be feeling. I admire that.

you posted the words attention seeking and I so want you to know that is so not what you do -now or ever. ok?

if anyone needed a bit support or just a cyber hug back -well you are getting one lovely lass.xx

believe that the future will work out . it surprises us all . and you have the wisdom and patience.:):)xx

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A..angel, sorry to hear your news, but as Bradders said, so proud of you for not giving in...

As you know, I'm only a couple of weeks behind you and you've always been here for me...so big hugs coming your way xx

Take care and keep strong - we will beat this damn addiction hunny xx

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Thanks Bradders, Skylark & Nikki. :)

That was a lovely reply skylark! I think it's ok to attention seek sometimes, i hate attention seekers but yes i am definetly being one at the minute! I just need to get through these next few days and then i'll be ok, it's highly unlikely i'd smoke now, i don't want to and thinking about it now makes me wonder why i ever liked it. :confused:

'Grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, courge to change the things i can and the wisdom to know the difference.' Having said that i trust that everything is going to be fine.

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What your going through with your son knocks a quit off the scale.

As a parent I can't comprehend a comparison.

Strength and 'fate for a reason' be with you.

Hugs,

Pol

xx

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Nice one angel, you didnt smoke..i would have..I still would :o

well done...despite everything :)

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Thanks Pol and kk. I talk a good talk but the mascara always gives it away! I still have my other two children, if they go then yes i will smoke, get very drunk and probably fall apart but thats not going to happen. Being strong is all i have right now, smoking won't make things better and certainly won't make him change his mind.

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Hey, :)

Who says whilst staying strong on the outside that you can't fall apart on the inside.

It's not his age, it's not even where he is................ it's his memories and who loves him and the little things....that is, for him, what will leave foot prints.

You've already journeyed some miles with your lad ............ you have footprints :)

Hugs,

Pol xx

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Thanks Pol thats so true. :) He has my blessings.

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What a lot to be dealing with Angel, I think you are a star for pulling through and not caving in to having a fag!

My life is relatively calm in comparison, yet I feel my quit is dangling by a thread, literally feel at any point I am minutes away from lighting up! Maybe draw a bit of strength from your post, we're only days apart, maybe its the final hurdle..............flipping hope so :eek:

What can I say except I hope everything pans out, what is happening now may not be how it will be in the future........a true believer that things will come good in the end............

Love Shelly XX

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maybe its the final hurdle..............flipping hope so :eek:

Love Shelly XX

Yeah i think people do get itchy around 5 months, not sure why but lets not give in hey. :D:cool::D

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Trying really hard Angel...........seem to get a few weeks of total "Yeah Ive cracked It" to then be hit out of nowhere by major craves and disillusionment!!

Been here before many times so will will try and ride it out, but in your position I may have faltered! Well done Angel, now I'll shut up before I hijack your thread :D XX

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I got through today and didn't smoke, my son has left me and i'm doing ok. Smoking won't make it better, it would just push them away more.

Thanks to all support and pm from people. It really does help.:)

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Well done FA for not giving in. I hope that numbness eases quickly for you. Sending you a big virtual hug ok.

Gaynor xx

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