Hi my fellow quitters i'm coming up 5 months now which is amazing, still have to remind myself that i was a smoker not so long ago!
It's funny because although i am 100% confident in my quit and have no desire to smoke again in my life i nearly had a wobble today!! A tiny wobble but still a wobble. I didn't want to smoke but as i watched my friend smoke it just looked right and i could almost feel the feeling of holding the roly between my fingers and raising my hand to take a drag.....:eek: It seemed tempting actually. The feeling was a very DEEP longing feeling.
The thought stopped right there. I know whats happening..i'm feeling a little lower than usual (my 12 yr old is son leaving on monday to live with his dad after a long and lonely day in court working things out..., an on off relationship of 4 1/2 years that has come to a blunt and unhappy ending.....oh and my horse has another leg injury... ) So is it any wonder i thought about having a smoke! If i could go running that would help, sorry i'm having a right depressing moan here which i don't want to do! Apart from attention seeking here the point of the thread was to remind the wobblers out there that it really is possible to overcome the awful times without reverting straight back to nasty habits.
I'm feeling better for that now, thanks for reading. xx
p.s on the positive side, being non smoker is so much more attractive !
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Hi my fellow quitters i'm coming up 5 months now which is amazing, still have to remind myself that i was a smoker not so long ago!
It's funny because although i am 100% confident in my quit and have no desire to smoke again in my life i nearly had a wobble today!! A tiny wobble but still a wobble. I didn't want to smoke but as i watched my friend smoke it just looked right and i could almost feel the feeling of holding the roly between my fingers and raising my hand to take a drag.....:eek: It seemed tempting actually. The feeling was a very DEEP longing feeling.
The thought stopped right there. I know whats happening..i'm feeling a little lower than usual (my 12 yr old is son leaving on monday to live with his dad after a long and lonely day in court working things out..., an on off relationship of 4 1/2 years that has come to a blunt and unhappy ending.....oh and my horse has another leg injury... ) So is it any wonder i thought about having a smoke! If i could go running that would help, sorry i'm having a right depressing moan here which i don't want to do! Apart from attention seeking here the point of the thread was to remind the wobblers out there that it really is possible to overcome the awful times without reverting straight back to nasty habits.
I'm feeling better for that now, thanks for reading. xx
p.s on the positive side, being non smoker is so much more attractive !
Hi Angel
not much to say but proud of you for not giving in and being strong ...hope you take heart from this and crack on now to freedom ...... you have just won a huge battle so hope you are very proud of yourself
That was a lovely reply skylark! I think it's ok to attention seek sometimes, i hate attention seekers but yes i am definetly being one at the minute! I just need to get through these next few days and then i'll be ok, it's highly unlikely i'd smoke now, i don't want to and thinking about it now makes me wonder why i ever liked it. :confused:
'Grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, courge to change the things i can and the wisdom to know the difference.' Having said that i trust that everything is going to be fine.
Thanks Pol and kk. I talk a good talk but the mascara always gives it away! I still have my other two children, if they go then yes i will smoke, get very drunk and probably fall apart but thats not going to happen. Being strong is all i have right now, smoking won't make things better and certainly won't make him change his mind.
Who says whilst staying strong on the outside that you can't fall apart on the inside.
It's not his age, it's not even where he is................ it's his memories and who loves him and the little things....that is, for him, what will leave foot prints.
You've already journeyed some miles with your lad ............ you have footprints
What a lot to be dealing with Angel, I think you are a star for pulling through and not caving in to having a fag!
My life is relatively calm in comparison, yet I feel my quit is dangling by a thread, literally feel at any point I am minutes away from lighting up! Maybe draw a bit of strength from your post, we're only days apart, maybe its the final hurdle..............flipping hope so :eek:
What can I say except I hope everything pans out, what is happening now may not be how it will be in the future........a true believer that things will come good in the end............
Trying really hard Angel...........seem to get a few weeks of total "Yeah Ive cracked It" to then be hit out of nowhere by major craves and disillusionment!!
Been here before many times so will will try and ride it out, but in your position I may have faltered! Well done Angel, now I'll shut up before I hijack your thread XX
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i'm coming up 5 months now which is amazing, still have to remind myself that i was a smoker not so long ago!
) So is it any wonder i thought about having a smoke! If i could go running that would help, sorry i'm having a right depressing moan here which i don't want to do! Apart from attention seeking here the point of the thread was to remind the wobblers out there that it really is possible to overcome the awful times without reverting straight back to nasty habits.
