Perhaps things will seem better when I've written it down...
Been quit 10 weeks and done brilliantly: coped well with craves, situations etc, started exercise, even cut out caffeine as well! Particularly proud of how I've dealt with stressful times.
Anyway. Today have found out that my husband is likely going to be made redundant and all our security has been whipped away from us in one go. I gave up work to look after our three small children, so we will shortly have no income.
Panic! At first I really, desperately needed a smoke - even got myself and my little boy ready to go to the shop. I stopped myself, though, and have since been at my computer reading, reading, reading. Been trying to talk myself out of it, with success so far.
But am still feeling wobbly
Off to pick up my children from school, so that will keep me occupied for a little longer, but not sure how long before I cave. 10 weeks! I can't throw that away! I know it will make me feel 100 times worse than I do now, but there's that stupid little voice in my head telling me that a smoke will make it all better - even though I know it won't.
I can do this, can't I? I can get over this.