so.. i managed through day one (Sunday) with no problems, even managed a few pints and didn't have an urge to smoke at all, i thought i was being brilliant!
got to work today, and managed 4 hours without going for any 'ciggy breaks' (they were previously one every hour).. again, thought i was being fantastic! no patches or anything! then got to lunch, and folded! had 3 cigs in the space of ten minutes! i feel terrible, and so let down by myself! i could cry! i think i might actually.
so.. i ran the tap through the pack of fags and feel so much better (dont know if it's the nicotine rush or what!!!)
i really don't want to be a smoker, it's such a pointless activity, and i've proved to myself that i don't need to smoke, it's just a habit that i seriously wish would just f-off out of my life! grrrrr!