Hope everyone is having a good Saturday
Got back late last night from Blackpool. Bit of a bizarre place but had a lovely holiday and most importantly my 3 year old niece had a ball.
My 5 month anniversary was while I was away. I celebrated it by not smoking even though I was away with my Mum who smokes and is scarily dependant on them. That was the eye opening bit. Not only did she get really panicky (and therefor really narky) if she hadn't been able to have one for an hour or more (travelling by train) she would also get the same on the lead up to her not being able to have one. It was quite shocking to see someones day/mood/emotional state being affected by smoking.
I have read loads on here about it but it never really clicked in my head til I saw it this week. It is an evil, nasty blight on peoples lives and it makes me so sad to see so many people (and especially my lovely mum) still in its clutches.
I had a few moments where I got that familiar grouchy "I want a cig" feeling but only really when my Mum was panicking about not being able to have one. I didn't really want one, I think it was out of habit if that makes sense.
I still find myself snapping a lot but don't think I can blame that on the quit forever.......
I am so pleased that I quit. So, so very pleased that i am where I am now and I really hope that everyone behind me gets to this point and can enjoy it the way I am. I go most days without thinking about smoking now and its lovely. I still have my moments and after a couple of slip ups I can't be complacent but on the whole its a really positive place to be right now.
Once I find a way of filling the time I used to spend smoking and using up all this new energy I am sure I will feel even better
Bring on six months, I cannot wait