The Long Walk to Freedom

Borrowed title I know from the great Nelson Mandela-but apt I think:)

I have learned loads from this forum. The main thing is that it doesnt matter how long you have smoked or what gender,class.or age etc. We are all on this walk together. Used to think that my quit would be harder cos I had smoked so much longer. What rubbish!! and I am glad I found this forum for that reason alone.

We are all struggling sometimes or else we wouldnt be on here.

I started smoking in the early sixties . A bit too careful and naive to smoke anything else -but it was what us cool hippies did.

Married and had two boys -and still it was ok to smoke -the lounge in the maternity ward was full of new mothers puffing away[curiously cigs taste awful when pregnant so I didnt. nature is a funny thing].

Then the strain of bringing up a family and working with no family around to help. I thought I deserved my cig breaks.

wind on a good few years and I needed my cigs for what was still known as nerves. keep you calm and off the happy pills.

into the nineties and the no smoking brigade are telling us truthfully -for goodness sake quit. if not for yourself then your fellow man.

I dont smoke at work at all , but fall on my pack of ten like a starving wolf when I get home. think I deserve it.

A year ago I noticed that I didnt want to walk my dog so far and had little energy for much else.

Then the wheezing started -a little bit at times -then at night.

got scared -really scared.

A few false starts -and I am more determined than I have ever been now.

this forum is a godsend to me .

I guess what I am trying to say is this.

I was the most stupid woman on earth . I so dont want any younger member of this forum to get so unhealthy. please dont .

I cannot believe how much my health has improved after only one month. And I have very obvious proof very quickly.

when you are younger the benefits wont be so noticable -and must make the quit harder. just imagine yourself struggling for breath and always looking for escalators in case you had to climb the stairs?

I am striding out now on our walk to freedom with you all beside me -and so thankful. walked three miles last night and felt reborn:D:D

hope I havent made you all fall over the pc with boredom or nausea:eek:

just wanted to tell you cos I care passionately about you younger quitters xx

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  • correction -cos I still have my pride :D:D

    I started smoking in the early seventies !!not sixties .

    Oh god the memory loss .xx

  • What a fantastic post skylark...says it all really..well done xx

  • Hi.

    New to thread, new to forum.

    I just don't get it it. I love smoking. The taste, the feel of the hit in the back of your throat, hell, even the smell is good to me. Pretty much all of my greatest memories involve smoking in some way.

    I know it's killing me. I know that each breath of smoke is a little bit of poison slowly rotting my lungs into a bloody, stinking mess of putrid flesh. I know that smoking is... well, bloody great actually.

    My problem is that I don't want to quit. I have smoked for 15 years and I still really enjoy it. Sorry, pause for a moment whilst I roll a fag... But now my partner is asking me to quit. She doesn't smoke, has never smoked, and is ferverently anti-smoking. One of the first things she said on our first date was that she could never be with someone who smoked.

    I wheeze. I cough. A lot. But I still go running every day, still play sport with no problems. The battle over smoking in the house is one that I lost, but have slowly eroded to 'opening a window'.

    I don't buy into the passive smoking deal. Think the whole anti-smoking lobby is faintly ridiculous, and wonder why their isn't an equal stink over drinking, which costs the NHS more, harms far more people, and causes you to act like a tit. And before some smart arse argues that there's no such thing as passive drinking, what about the victim of a drunk driver? Or the recipients of drink fuelled violence? (Sorry, argument I've had far too many times).

    I've always been of the opinion that smoking was my choice. Hell, if subscribing to a faith that proscribes murder as a punishment is my choice, or working for a company that cynically exploits the poorest in the world, or profits from pollution, then surely it is my choice if I choose to poison myself with a particular substance? If it is socially acceptable to slowly poison yourself with alcohol, why not with tobacco? Would George Best have received a new set of lungs, or the public sympathy that he did?

    So, my plea for help. I don't want to quit. But I know that I should. My partner has finally plucked up the courage to ask me to. Convince me. Please.

    Hi there,

    Nice to see how you address people on your first post!!

    Well I dont know where to start with that....let me see, I am known for my honesty in here so... I think its a rude post. Fair enough you make some obvious well known points, but there aren't any "smart arses" in here, just people trying their bloody hardest to quit smoking. Now if you know all of the things you have said above how on earth do you expect us to convince you?? We aren't in here for a debate we are all in the same boat.

    You have to WANT to quit or you have no chance simple as that.

    Good luck with your quit if you ever start one....

  • Hi Sky after reading your thread any one should or would see the reasons to quit but we don’t do we that’s the problem, the drug has or has had us all in its grip for however long and it is a grip that takes a will of iron to get released form, you my friend have managed it and I am pleased to say that to me you are doing so well and will continue do so.

    As the quit progresses you go through different phases which can be very trying but each one proves to you that you are strong and able to move forward and stay quit, have a good day and love your thread, I hope all the newbie’s will read this and realise here is a very sensible lady with a good grip on quitting and some sound advice and support on offer.

  • Hi.

    New to thread, new to forum.

    I just don't get it it. I love smoking. The taste, the feel of the hit in the back of your throat, hell, even the smell is good to me. Pretty much all of my greatest memories involve smoking in some way.

    I know it's killing me. I know that each breath of smoke is a little bit of poison slowly rotting my lungs into a bloody, stinking mess of putrid flesh. I know that smoking is... well, bloody great actually.

    My problem is that I don't want to quit. I have smoked for 15 years and I still really enjoy it. Sorry, pause for a moment whilst I roll a fag... But now my partner is asking me to quit. She doesn't smoke, has never smoked, and is ferverently anti-smoking. One of the first things she said on our first date was that she could never be with someone who smoked.

    I wheeze. I cough. A lot. But I still go running every day, still play sport with no problems. The battle over smoking in the house is one that I lost, but have slowly eroded to 'opening a window'.

    I don't buy into the passive smoking deal. Think the whole anti-smoking lobby is faintly ridiculous, and wonder why their isn't an equal stink over drinking, which costs the NHS more, harms far more people, and causes you to act like a tit. And before some smart arse argues that there's no such thing as passive drinking, what about the victim of a drunk driver? Or the recipients of drink fuelled violence? (Sorry, argument I've had far too many times).

    I've always been of the opinion that smoking was my choice. Hell, if subscribing to a faith that proscribes murder as a punishment is my choice, or working for a company that cynically exploits the poorest in the world, or profits from pollution, then surely it is my choice if I choose to poison myself with a particular substance? If it is socially acceptable to slowly poison yourself with alcohol, why not with tobacco? Would George Best have received a new set of lungs, or the public sympathy that he did?

    So, my plea for help. I don't want to quit. But I know that I should. My partner has finally plucked up the courage to ask me to. Convince me. Please.

    LOl hahahahahahahaha :D:D:D

  • Hi.

    New to thread, new to forum.

    I just don't get it it. I love smoking. The taste, the feel of the hit in the back of your throat, hell, even the smell is good to me. Pretty much all of my greatest memories involve smoking in some way.

    I know it's killing me. I know that each breath of smoke is a little bit of poison slowly rotting my lungs into a bloody, stinking mess of putrid flesh. I know that smoking is... well, bloody great actually.

    My problem is that I don't want to quit. I have smoked for 15 years and I still really enjoy it. Sorry, pause for a moment whilst I roll a fag... But now my partner is asking me to quit. She doesn't smoke, has never smoked, and is ferverently anti-smoking. One of the first things she said on our first date was that she could never be with someone who smoked.

    I wheeze. I cough. A lot. But I still go running every day, still play sport with no problems. The battle over smoking in the house is one that I lost, but have slowly eroded to 'opening a window'.

    I don't buy into the passive smoking deal. Think the whole anti-smoking lobby is faintly ridiculous, and wonder why their isn't an equal stink over drinking, which costs the NHS more, harms far more people, and causes you to act like a tit. And before some smart arse argues that there's no such thing as passive drinking, what about the victim of a drunk driver? Or the recipients of drink fuelled violence? (Sorry, argument I've had far too many times).

    I've always been of the opinion that smoking was my choice. Hell, if subscribing to a faith that proscribes murder as a punishment is my choice, or working for a company that cynically exploits the poorest in the world, or profits from pollution, then surely it is my choice if I choose to poison myself with a particular substance? If it is socially acceptable to slowly poison yourself with alcohol, why not with tobacco? Would George Best have received a new set of lungs, or the public sympathy that he did?

    So, my plea for help. I don't want to quit. But I know that I should. My partner has finally plucked up the courage to ask me to. Convince me. Please.

    Couldn't be ar*ed to reply to this yesterday but today .................

    4675

  • Hi.

    My partner has finally plucked up the courage to ask me to.

    That line tells me all I need to know about you............

  • Hi.

    My partner has finally plucked up the courage to ask me to.

    That line tells me all I need to know about you............

    That was my thinking.... :eek:

  • I am 22 years old and have been smoking for 7 and a half years! Started smoking due to peer pressure thought i'd look "cool" and become more popular at school! I quit 9 days ago to save my money to do better things with my boyfriend. Secretly i always have been worried that i was going to die due to a smoking related illness one day and reading your post skylark has really helped me stay strong! the thought of having difficulty breathing or to start wheezing one day scares me but to know that its my fault and i could have stopped/avoided it earlier in life but didn't terrifies me! I can't imagine anything worse than sitting in a hospital bed dying, in excruciating pain and suffering and knowing its all your fault you did this to yourself and theres no one to blame but yourself! knowing you could have quit months/years ago and this might never have happened! that is a truly terrifying thought to me!

    I'm happy to be doing this now whilst i'm young for many reasons really This way i can enjoy my youth without cigarettes! won't remember going for a fag all the time and will enjoy things without having to go for fag all the time! I think that it will be easier for me to give up now because i haven't been smoking a tremendous amount of time so i will most probably suffer less withdrawal symptoms and find easier to adjust to a smoke free life!

    And i agree 100% with your statement "were all walking this road together"

    As for Heathen what is the point in coming here if you don't want to quit? personally i can't understand why it doesn't bother you that you know its killing you because knowing that always bothered me even when i was puffing away on 20 cigarettes a day! you can't force yourself to quit you have to want to quit and i mean really want to! there's nothing anyone can say to you thats gonna make you want to quit you have to decide you want to and find your reason why! hopefully we'll see you back here soon telling us you have quit but i'm not going to hold my smoke free breath for that to happen!!

  • Hi Vaughnie,

    I am so pleased that this thread helped you on your quit.:)

    All true and if just one person reads it and thinks - hell this could be me - than I am one happy old gal:o

    you are doing fine and got the goals in view -and time on your side.

    As I posted -I think the discomfort of quitting is hard for us all. We have different reasons and personalities. And different triggers .

    you keep going wont you? build those holiday memories in your mind -those hols you wouldnt have if breathing in and out smoke . why ???

    its daft isnt it if you think logically?

    A very wise skylark now :eek:

    A very reckless stupid woman in the past.:o

    but I have so many benefits now - never ever too late xx

  • Great post

    Skylark, what a great post and I suspect we are about the same age as I started smoking in the early 70s as well. I can relate to most of the things in your post like the fear of climbing stairs and being out of breath. My son moved into a flat in Edinburgh while attending University and asked me to deliver some of his possessions and after walking up two levels I thought that I was going to have a heart attack as I struggled to get my breath. That was last year, and two weeks ago my son moved to a new flat and guess what I virtually ran up the two flight of stairs (6 month stopped). Like you Skylark, I owe the people on this site a lot as in the early part of my quit I relied on the support of this site. But great post.

    Dannyboy

    Quit: 18th Dec 2009 CT after 35 years

    Age:55

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