So to cut a long story short, me and my partner smoked 25 cigarettes each a day and we both quit cold turkey back when I was 19 weeks pregnant so its almost 3 months since quitting.
Anyway I woke up to find him missing in our bed and crept downstairs thinking he was 'relieving' himself after morning glory to actually find him coming in from outside shaking and looking guilty.
I just knew what he had done as he started sipping away fast at some coke cola so I knew he was trying to hide the fact he had smoked!
He said it was only 3 drags on a butt end he found and he only thought about having one when he saw it, he hadnt planned it or anything.
So if anything Im more dissapointed in him and feel betrayed rather than angry and I have begged him not to start again for me, the baby and himself. I dont think he will as he made it this far and he recieved some bad news yesterday which is the main reason I think he caved.
Im wondering though if he will now feel the withdrawal symptoms of quitting again after the 3 drags or because it wasnt a whole cigarette he will be fine I have no idea???
Im pissed with him but feel more let down than anything and just pray that he wont have withrdawel symptoms again now because he fed himself 'the drug nicotine' because otherwise Im in for a crappy 4 days now and he is so at risk of starting again.