Still Hangin' in there

Hi all, glad to report that day two is drawing to a smoke-free close (unless you count the burnt dinner). My BF is on day 3 CT. He has terrible cravings and is nervous but has started having a cough so this is helping his resolve. I am on the patch and don't think I could handle CT right now (or ever). I also could not do it if the BF was not also quitting. Such resolve, I know, but I am just being realistic. Last night my BF ended up lying on the floor with his head in a cupboard. Dunno why, desperation I think. Quite amusing. Just left him to it. It helps me that he is such a wreck as I like to feel superior and be the strong one, staying calm at all costs. However, I feel terrible and low, but can't let on as it won't help him. Tomorrow is friday and the possibility of heading to the pub looms. We have decided to give it a miss as it would be a disaster but maybe we should go just to see if we can do it. Maybe we will go out for a long bike ride instead and be so tired that we will sleep instead. Why do the weekend always make me nervous when I am quitting? Answer - alcohol!! So no drinking or Mr Malborough Lite is bound to ask politely at first - is this seat taken? and after rebuffing him, half an hour later I will be helping him into his chair and offering to buy him a drink. Well, Mr Marlborough you are not welcome here, i have told you before nicely and now i am going to hit you over the head with this ashtray!! I am not violent by nature but some situations call for it....

Anyway, hope it plays out that way. I don't really want to hurt him or his cohorts, i just don't want to be around them as they lead me astray. So to all of you contemplating a weekend as a non-smoker, be ready for the lurking enemy who will pounce like a panther if given the chance. I intend to win this battle, as I am sick of losing it.

Excuse the ramblings, just getting psyched up. Hope I am not all talk.....

good luck to you all, thanks for the support, it feels like a psychiatric ward in this house. I've gone crazy, but i ain't smoking. will that do?

xox,

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  • Hi all, glad to report that day two is drawing to a smoke-free close (unless you count the burnt dinner). My BF is on day 3 CT. He has terrible cravings and is nervous but has started having a cough so this is helping his resolve. I am on the patch and don't think I could handle CT right now (or ever). I also could not do it if the BF was not also quitting. Such resolve, I know, but I am just being realistic. Last night my BF ended up lying on the floor with his head in a cupboard. Dunno why, desperation I think. Quite amusing. Just left him to it. It helps me that he is such a wreck as I like to feel superior and be the strong one, staying calm at all costs. However, I feel terrible and low, but can't let on as it won't help him. Tomorrow is friday and the possibility of heading to the pub looms. We have decided to give it a miss as it would be a disaster but maybe we should go just to see if we can do it. Maybe we will go out for a long bike ride instead and be so tired that we will sleep instead. Why do the weekend always make me nervous when I am quitting? Answer - alcohol!! So no drinking or Mr Malborough Lite is bound to ask politely at first - is this seat taken? and after rebuffing him, half an hour later I will be helping him into his chair and offering to buy him a drink. Well, Mr Marlborough you are not welcome here, i have told you before nicely and now i am going to hit you over the head with this ashtray!! I am not violent by nature but some situations call for it....

    Anyway, hope it plays out that way. I don't really want to hurt him or his cohorts, i just don't want to be around them as they lead me astray. So to all of you contemplating a weekend as a non-smoker, be ready for the lurking enemy who will pounce like a panther if given the chance. I intend to win this battle, as I am sick of losing it.

    Excuse the ramblings, just getting psyched up. Hope I am not all talk.....

    good luck to you all, thanks for the support, it feels like a psychiatric ward in this house. I've gone crazy, but i ain't smoking. will that do?

    xox,

    hi Rachel

    sorry but that made me laugh out very loud ...................... tomorrow should start getting easier for him and you might i add ......sometimes all the best advise in the world doesn't strike home and if you are both that determined to do this ...hang in there and beat this little f*****er and you can ...... drink plenty get busy and stay focused on your quit ....at least you have each other in the godd and bad times ..... and even if your oh is doping the ostrich impression it will at least make you smile ...... stay tough you guys trust me it is soooo worth it :)

  • Thanks Bradders

    Hi, yeah it was funny when he had his head in the cupboard. Thank god for a laugh. He has now bought some weird licourice root to chew. I actually thought it was a cigar at first. Says it good if you like pure liquorice. But you are right , we can support each other in good and bad times. I can't believe we are not smoking , it was such a big part of the daily routine. He finds the one after dinner horrendous to cope with. I just do the dishes! Also the last one before bed. I miss the one with tea in the morning. I had a yoghurt instead and found a hair in it. Really, will never buy that cheap brand again. Nearly had me running to the shop to buy fags, at least you never find hairs in them!!

    Today is Saturday and it is raining. Had a mild panic attack re fags and my BF provided first aid. So chilvarous. Am now in the recovery position on the floor!

    Moment of happiness whilst brushing my teeth. didn't scrub so hard and felt pleased with myself. So onwards and upwards. It will be worth this grief, so thanks for your kind words as they really help and well done to you on your quit. Hope you are having a nice day.

    xox

  • Today is Saturday and it is raining. Had a mild panic attack re fags and my BF provided first aid. So chilvarous. Am now in the recovery position on the floor!

    xox

    Yikes, should you be telling us that LOL.

    Glad your quits are going well, great to hear. It will & does get easier, promise.

    Gaynor x

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