confession

[nsd_user663_4293]

I haven't posted for a while though I have been keeping an eye on the progress of others.

Tomorrow should be 9 weeks for me, BUT, things on the domestic front have become extremely difficult (nothing to do with the giving up smoking). As a result a couple of weekends ago I smoked approximately 10 over the weekend, then stopped again on the Sunday and didn't smoke then for about 10 days or so. The weekend just gone I smoked again, a pack of 10 and again stopped at about 5pm on Sunday.

I am finding it, naturally, more and more difficult not to smoke as obviously I have set of the addiction again and because I am so busy trying to concentrate on the domestic situation and am quite tired I find it difficult to fight the cravings. So far at least I am managing not to smoke during the week but I don't know how long I will be able to to that.

One positive is that I now know I can do it, I just need the right circumstances, so even if I do start smoking full time (which I am trying to avoid) once the mess at home is sorted I know I will be able to start stopping again (IYSWIM).

[nsd_user663_8102]

Aww dont beat yourself up about this ..as you know i did the very same it would of been 11 weeks and i blipped .. and struggling now myself its 9 days now since it happened but i'm just thinking of all those weeks i didnt smoke and how good it was to be free of topping up every hour or so ..

i'm sure you'l get back on track when you feel the time is right has you said you know you can cos you have done it .. i know where you are coming from but dont be hard on yourself..

take care ..xx

[nsd_user663_4293]

Aww dont beat yourself up about this ..as you know i did the very same it would of been 11 weeks and i blipped .. and struggling now myself its 9 days now since it happened but i'm just thinking of all those weeks i didnt smoke and how good it was to be free of topping up every hour or so ..

i'm sure you'l get back on track when you feel the time is right has you said you know you can cos you have done it .. i know where you are coming from but dont be hard on yourself..

take care ..xx

Thanks, have just been to see the practice nurse, I can't have any more Champix so it's just me and my mind :eek:

I do not want to go back to smoking 20 a day, no strike that I will not go back to smoking 20 a day so somehow I have to get through this carp at home, even it it means doing what I'm doing now.

[nsd_user663_8676]

So sorry to hear you are having a rough time but I agree with everyone else -you must not be too hard on yourself. Some people reach for a drink when stressed, others raid the fridge. You know deep down that it doesn't really help and you will manage to give up once you are less upset.

You say the nurse won't let you have any more Champix - why don't you make an appointment with your doctor and after you have explained what you are going through he might be more understanding.

Take care and post when you can - we're here to help