I have failed myself. I had a HORRIBLE night last night. I grabbed my husbands pack of cigs and smoked 3 or 4. I cant remember exactly, of course DRINKING ALCOHOL was a major factor. I Dont want to say im at day 1 again??? But dont deserve to say this is day 46 either. I am so disappointed with myself and with my husband for not trying to talk me out of it....:confused:
A part of me feels like "ok I failed, might as well start up again" but then I feel like I slipped "now get back up and keep going"! ALL MY HARD WORK OUT THE WINDOW ((tears rolling))
I HATE MYSELF RIGHT NOW!!!!