I’ve just got back from a few days camping, the sun was shining and hubby was off work so we couldn’t resist- we did our annual 3 miles from home test run. The first thing we had to nip home for as it had been forgotten was a lighter- not something we’ve ever had to pack before as it’s just in my bag, got home, remembered I ceremoniously binned them all when I quit and went to the shop- durrrr. Anyway, I live to tell the tale, it was a lush few days, but I found it tremendously hard, I didn’t crave, it wasn’t so much the “OMG I need a fag” moments, and it wasn’t even really a habitual thing- the weather wasn’t nice enough for the lying out in the sun with beer association ciggy. It was something else-more abstract, that I haven’t quite figured yet (maybe part of the loss thing that I haven’t felt too much yet).
I’m sure my mind set should be feeling very proud that another trigger type hurdle has been beaten, but actually I feel a bit cross with myself really- for not having had the insight to realise what a challenge it would be and for having been a bit of a drama queen over what, essentially, was just three days without smoking- Hope everyone’s doing well
Pols xxx
Pols, yes i get craves/ wants etc. when i go away for the day or on holiday etc.It's sort of a " I'm on holiday-having fun- i used to smoke while doing this fun thing-it's not fun without smoking"
I have a festival in summer that i'm VERY worried about because i can't imagine festivalling without smoking! Sitting beside a tent without smoking!
This is my last remaining trigger/ association to break i think, as i have successfully conquered drinking alcohol which was my main demon. (Drinking alcohol at festival???:eek
Just breaking down the last of the associations and allowing those pangs to pass i guess.