Ok so almost at the end of day 3....has been an ok journey so far - but i knew the weekend was going to be hard.
Had a mandatory leaving do after work - 1 glass of wine then literally HAD to leave because was scared of the tipsy 'losing inhibitionsness'. eek! i struggled on, took a nicorette mini on the bus and it slowly passed. Trouble is now i am at home, really wanting another glass of wine... but honestly scared because i know it would make me want to smoke
I just cant imagine this feeling going away - the goal is to be able to go out on a great night out with my friends and get sloshed and not think about smoking or at least not be bothered about it - will this ever happen?! Because right now I cant imagine it. aaaaaaaaa i get so jealous of all those people in the pub who have NEVER started and can just enjoy themselves. i want to be them
does drinking ever becomes pleasureable again after quitting or is it in the back of your mind forever?!
Just had some toast - totally unsatified lol. Dont want to develop a fear of drinking and going out with my friends for the fear of losing control
SORRY for the rant, you are all so positive - but this (the VERY end of day 3) is by far my hardest point.
Hope you are all being more positive than me