Hi everyone, yes it is my 6 months today
Have been thinking about what I want to say, I do remember that at various stages of my quit I have looked ahead to see what people further along were feeling, and I think that can be really helpful.
The first week I remember having to choose not to smoke every hour, sometimes every min, I went to bed early just so I would not be tempted to go to the shop and buy some. I shouted at just about everybody in my life, OH, kids, mum and dad etc. It was pretty awful, but I knew that if I gave in then I would never have the strength to do it again.
In those early days this forum helped me realise that everything I was feeling was normal, that it would pass and that it would be worth it. I don't know if I really believed all that but the more I read it the more real it all became.
As the weeks went by I began to realise I was doing it and it didn't seem to be that hard anymore, don't get me wrong there were days when I could have smoked, wanted to smoke, but those days were getting fewer and the habit was been broken day by day.
Then without noticing almost, I was counting in months, gone had the times when I was counting hours since I stopped, some day I even forgot where I was on the quitting ladder. This to me seemed amazing, the first few days/weeks I could have told you how many hours it was since I last had a fag and now I couldn't remember how many weeks it had been.
Now here I am 6 months into my quit, how do I feel now? Well most days are good, I don't really crave them anymore. I have even had a day or two when they have not entered my head at all (very good days indeed). When I have a drink (or 3) that can sometimes still be difficult, not hard, just difficult.
I had my blip as you are aware, this if anything strengthed my quit, (do not try this at home). It made me aware that although I was no longer smoking I was still an addict and will remain so for the rest of my life, and if I wish to remain a non smoker the only way for me to do that is to choose not smoke.
and today I choose not to smoke, please all of you join me in choosing not to smoke today, and when you wake in the morning choose not to smoke again, and together we will all reach the Penthouse.
Thanks for reading and hope at least some of this makes sense!