I wanted to shake off the shame that clung to me every time I nipped out for a fag and left my kids or friends.
I didn't want to see the disappointment in my sons' eyes after another failed quit attempt
I wanted to wake up and not cough
I don't like failing and my smoking addiction was my biggest failure
I wanted to enjoy things without always constantly thinking when can I shoot off for a cigarette.
Basically, I wanted to take back control of my life. I can't do anything about the 20 odd years that nicotine has been ever present in my life but I am determined that it has no part in my present or my future.