It’s been a funny old week- it really has. The 1st 2 weeks, however hard, the high of the decision/action kind of got me through, then Mon and Tues this week, it just settled into the long hard slog of it, almost as though the novelty of the quit had worn off, and I was getting on with the reality of it all- not brilliant, not awful- just so, still craving a lot, but it not really occurring to me to smoke, I long to have a fag, but when I think about doing it, it’s just as though it’s not really an option anymore. Then, the pain in my gums and tongue kicked in…My goodness, it’s a long old time since I’ve experienced pain that made me cry, but that was it, I found myself not wanting to smoke, but wishing I hadn’t reached a place where I knew it was my time to stop. Ended up at dentist, crying “I don’t care if it’s all part of the journey, it’s agony, make it stop”- work, pain relief and anti biotics later, and it’s kind of manageable. Alongside that kind of hideousness, the benefits are really starting to shine through for me- not planning in fag breaks, not having to leave conversations to sneak off for a puff is just fab. The stains on my fingers are as good as gone, my skin’s clearer, my sleep patterns are levelling off into a new normality- it’s all good. I’ve realised I’ve some planning to do between now and the Summer, I haven’t missed smoking a lot so far, but come the summer, the festivals, sat with mates in the sun, listening to music with a decent pint, I think that’s when the loss part is really going to kick in for me. I need to consider how I’m going to manage that, whilst not over worrying about it, if I think about it too much, between now and then the junkie in me will subconsciously give myself permission to fail. Hope everyone else has had another good, smoke free day Pols xxx
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