I thought I would start a thread off as I am finding a particular withdrawal very difficult and I haven't really seen anyone else reporting on it on here and it is driving me CRAZYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!:eek:
I am at day 33 of my quit ... it will be 5 weeks on Tuesday (yes, it will, as I will make it to Tuesday without a doubt!). I don't want a ciggarette per say, most cravings seem to have gone for good, I don't really think about one after food ... which is truly amazing seems as all I do at the moment is eat lol!! I have had some pretty stressful events in the past week and the huge cravings that come with them soon disappear ... all this sounds wonderful and should mean I am sailing through and on my way to a successful, smoke free life ... yeah right ... how about the constant feeling of displacement? Do you know what I mean???
It started pretty much when all the physical withdrawals left and is with me constantly. I feel like I don't belong in my life properly now ... ok, I know I sound like a nutter!! I just don't seem to look forward to things with the same "joie de vive". I am 33 and smoked for 18 years so practically my whole adult life has revolved around smoking ... now there is all this empty space and, after lots of thought ... yes constant bloody thought, I thin kthe problem is the life 'reward' system is gone .... we rewarded ourselves pretty much 20+ times a day ... what now!!!! The weekends are particularly difficult and the evenings and now when I look forward to a night out there suddenly seems no point. I know that if I didn't have this ill-at-ease feeling all the time the quit would be a doddle ... is it normal, does it pass ... I just don't want to feel like this for too long ... I can't concentrate at work and it keeps bringing back bouts of my anxiety/low mood.
I live alone ... do you think it is easier when you have a partner? Giving up smoking has also made me re-evaluate my life and suddenly with all this extra time it is suprising how much you are actually lacking!!
I wish so much that this would just pass and I could get my life back ... however, it won't be life as I know it Jim!!
Thanks for the ear.