The aftermath of much chocolate, booze sluggishness etc. I don't really want to smoke but i just feel a bit blaah(and fat- how much weight have i put on in a week????)
This time, I have done 6 weeks today! (or a year and a half if you count stop, start, one or two, social smoking, give up again blipness-which i don't cos there was far too much of it to be considered blipness.)
So, treating this six weeks as my proper quit (the longest ever!)
Here is what i would stand to lose if i smoke again.
1) I'm not and have never really been an exercise person, apart from walking everywhere.....I can now RUN , and i've started running part of the way home from work.....I could NEVER run because i would collapse in a wheezing heap completely outta breath. What was i doing to my poor lungs? I am even (THIS AMAZES ME) THINKING OF JOINING A GYM!!! i don't occasionally wake up, gasping for breath like an 80 year old anymore.
2) My teeth have never been this white! For all those expensive whitening toothpastes i used to buy were total waste of cash when i recoated the teeth with the next dose of nicotine shortly after.
3) I'm not a junkie who cares first and foremost where i can get my next puff, which is never enough. I don't have to borrow a fiver at the end of the week for fags (food i could do without, but fags must be bought)
4) I smell nice. I hate the smell of smokers and i can't believe i used to smell like that! I couldn't smell anything though so i didn't know! I can smell things, the sense of smell is a wonderful thing .
5) Freedom- don't have to worry when i can get that next fix. Don't have to kid myself that i enjoy it anymore.
6) My thoughts are much less negative- I'm thinking bout things i haven't thought about doing for years. Learning to drive, going to college, leaving my Cr*p job.I was soo stuck in a rut of negativity and it took stopping smoking to change it. I don't have to live day to day, because i know can think about the future, and i know i can make changes. I'm more confident- weirdly, now i haven't got my social prop.
7) I've always liked food, but - hey who knew it tasted this good? (time to ffw those gym plans methinks)
Yeah, this quit is good. I no longer want to be an addict. I want to be free to be myself. I don't want to f**k up six weeks!!!!