had over a 100 days quit and fell back to smoking i brought a pack of richmond mentol on wednesday..ive had 3 on wednesday, 2 on thursday, 2 on friday and 2 today....now have one cigarette left which im going to have tomorrow.....and hopefully quit on the 1st of december...i say hopefully because the other side of me wants to quit the 1st of january.:eek:
i know ive been very silly and started again i think because lately ive been feeling very lost....I felt like no matter what i was doing that i had that something missing feeling, and very restless.
Also being out of work is not helping, and the winter blues are a part to blame also. I do blame myself too.
What worrys me is quiting now and then start smoking at christmas or new years when ive had a drink...I dont know if my mind is in the right state of mind.....I know there is always some excuse to put off quiting smoking.
Just dont want to waste another attempt that is bound for failure.
Because my mind at the moment seems convinced that i should quit january and that i will smoke over christmas.