The Dreams

Had another smoking dream last night. Felt like I had just had enough, and gave in, I woke up this morning and I swear my mouth felt like I had had one:eek:

I feel a bit better now I have had a cuppa, but to be honest still feel like I want one. I know I will not, but still it is a cr*p feeling. I am tired and stressed, feel like I have not had fun in ages. I know I can put it all down to the thing with my mum, and the nights drawing in, but I was sat here at the computer last night, and if there had been cigs in the house there is no doubt in my mind that I would have smoked. I even looked out of the window to see if my neighbour was still up, she smokes and I thought I could go round and have one, lucky for me all the lights were off.

Ok I need to shake off this "feeling sorry for myself" thing, going to have another cuppa, and then try to have a good day. Have to remind myself that having a cig will not help anything, it will only make the situation worse, God even as I type that I don't believe it today!

Sitting here will certainly not help the situation, so off I go, wish me luck and if any of you have any spare laughs hanging around could you send to Bevyorks in sunny Yorkshire.

Thanks for reading another one of my moans.:(

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  • Hi bev

    Sorry you had that dream again but that's all it was a dream

    Try reading the links that might help you and I hope you soon feel better

    Marg

  • Sorry you're feeling like that Bev. But you've come so far don't let it get you down. You know this feeling will pass and you know that a cigarette won't help.

    Just think, you don't want to have to do this all over again.

    be strong and good luck

    Sue

  • Bev - so sorry to hear you're still feelng cr*p. A few of us have felt a bit dodgy the last week or so.

    Can't add much to waht the others have said - but be strong. You've come too far now. And it will get better. Look at Marg - she's an inspiration!

    Also - you moan if you want to. We're hear to listen.

  • I've not had a smoking dream this last 2 months, but the last one i had i woke from feeling really gutted that i'd smoked.. it was too real.. but it reminded me how i would feel if i had smoked.. let down...

    the relief later in the morning when i was like 'oh thank goodness for that!!!' was immense.

    As for feeling down bit.. aren't you married to a doctor? have you spoken to your hub about this? might be he can help more than you think.

  • Sorry to hear that, Bev. I know the haven't had any fun for ages feeling. And the wanting a cig feeling - so different from a craving. I guess it's a case until waiting until it doesn't happen any more.

  • Hope this cheers you up a bit Bev

    Bill and Sam, two elderly friends, met in the park every day to

    feed the pigeons, watch the squirrels and discuss world problems.

    One day Bill didn't show up. Sam didn't think much about it and figured

    maybe he had a cold or something. But after Bill hadn't shown up

    for a week or so, Sam really got worried.

    However, since the only time they ever got together was at the park, Sam didn't know where Bill lived, so he was unable to find out what had happened to him.

    A month had passed, and Sam figured he had seen the last of Bill,

    but one day, Sam approached the park and -- lo and behold! --there sat

    Bill! Sam was very excited and happy to see him and told him so. Then

    he said, 'For crying out loud Bill, what in the world happened to you?'

    Bill replied, 'I have been in jail.'

    'Jail?' cried Sam. 'What in the world for?'

    'Well,' Bill said, 'you know Mary, that cute little blonde

    waitress at the coffee shop where I sometime go?'

    'Yeah,' said Sam, 'I remember her. What about her?'

    'Well, one day she filed rape charges against me; and, at 89

    years old, I was so proud that when I got into court, I pled 'guilty'

    'The damn judge gave me 30 days for perjury.'

    :)

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