Had another smoking dream last night. Felt like I had just had enough, and gave in, I woke up this morning and I swear my mouth felt like I had had one:eek:
I feel a bit better now I have had a cuppa, but to be honest still feel like I want one. I know I will not, but still it is a cr*p feeling. I am tired and stressed, feel like I have not had fun in ages. I know I can put it all down to the thing with my mum, and the nights drawing in, but I was sat here at the computer last night, and if there had been cigs in the house there is no doubt in my mind that I would have smoked. I even looked out of the window to see if my neighbour was still up, she smokes and I thought I could go round and have one, lucky for me all the lights were off.
Ok I need to shake off this "feeling sorry for myself" thing, going to have another cuppa, and then try to have a good day. Have to remind myself that having a cig will not help anything, it will only make the situation worse, God even as I type that I don't believe it today!
Sitting here will certainly not help the situation, so off I go, wish me luck and if any of you have any spare laughs hanging around could you send to Bevyorks in sunny Yorkshire.
Thanks for reading another one of my moans.