Just wanted to drop in and let everyone know I am still here, I read post everyday when I am at work. Wanted to wait a bit till I could say that I have been quit for 1 week now! Whew! Have been using the patches again, still look like a spotted leopard with flees from itching but it's ok I will take the red whelps and itching over smoking.
Not sure what has happened this time in my quit, think I am tired of failing and starting over that when I started this time I said enough is enough. Had a couple of times that the old Michelle would have ripped the patch off and started smoking again but for some reason this time I have managed to say no. My daughter was smoking (I know bad thing) and she said you want to smoke mom, I said nope I got my patch on and I am doing good, she was very pleased. Second I was driving to see a friend in horrible rain, the old Michelle would of ripped the patch off again and pulled in the first store and bought a packet and smoked the rest of the trip but this time it was like, nope not gonna do it, had white knuckles when I reached my location but hey felt good. Third was my dog ran away, never had a dog of my own and he was great, slept with me every night, made road trips with me, just a very good dog, and he ran away when I went to visit my friend. Old Michelle would of went to store and smoked to feel better.
So...I guess the mind set this time is different and I like it. Had a few beers and did good also. I am tired of coming on here and saying I quit only to turn around and fail. I am coughing and getting that stuff out of my system and I am exercising again, FINALLY joined a gym and it's amazing how much better I feel.
I just wanted to stop in and say I'm still trying, I'm here and I will be more active in supporting others but wanted to get myself together first before I did!