Some of you will know that I fell off my quit on day 90 earlier this month.
Without going into the boring details I let my emotions get the better of me & I had a ciggarette despite knowing all to well it would not make anything better or solve anything. I was stupid & I know that.
I have struggled over the last 2 weeks to get back on my quit. Each night I have said tomorrow then when tomorrow comes, well tomorrow is another day.
Today, thanks to some kind words (you know who you are LOL) I managed to get myself to work & NOT stop for 10 cigs on the way. I did kinda toy with the idea of getting some at lunchtime but managed to avoid doing that as well. Came home & my OH smokes (outside) & have managed not to go and beg one from him.
I used patches last time & lozenges so am going to use the middle strength patch just for a couple of weeks to get me back into this.
There is no point beating myself up about what I have done, I cannot turn the clock back & undo the past but I can learn from this. I already knew there is never 'Just One'. Have tried that old chestnut many a time. NEVER take another puff means NEVER for a reason.
I have reset my quit meter & am going to e-mail it to both my sons every day. I have asked them that if they don't get it to ring & give me a good talking to.
I called myself Neverstoptrying for a reason!!!!
Good luck to everyone out there no matter where you are on your quit.
Love Gaynor xx
I have been quit for 13 hours, 12 minutes and 59 seconds (0 days). I have saved Â£2.64 by not smoking 11 cigarettes. I have saved 55 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 24/08/2009 07:50