I had my last ever cigarette. I know I've said it before (this time yesterday in fact) but I mean it this time.
I'm known amongst my family for being a stubborn cow so now I'm going to use that to my advantage and turn my pig-headed-ness into will power.
I am a mum of four and for me the main incentive to quitting is that each of my 20 a day cigarettes robs me of at least 17 minutes with my kids. I think that adding up to 340minutes a day (ALMOST 7 HOURS!!!!!!!) is a damn disgrace and I'm ashamed to see that in front of me.
Secondly Being the single minded individual that I am, I want to go into work in a couple of weeks and be the best (I'm more than a little competitive too) How can I chastise others for being lazy if I'm off having a fag break at every opportunity? I have recently been offered a promotion and am damned if I'm going to be shown up by someone of the same "rank" who is 12 years younger than me, I will work harder and faster than him and thus gain bigger bonuses and I feel that being an ex-smoker will help me do this.
Right now I guess I'm coming accross and strong, possibly a cocky and more than a little psychotic. The truth is I'm 100% fired up. The difference between saying this last night and tonight is that last night I was "quitting in the morning", right now I have quit and it's now been 30 minutes.
This morning I woke up and my first thought was is the corner shop open? Sad, pathetic and selfish. I didn't matter I'd just gone 8 hours without a fag, I was going to just have one. Well, we all know where that leads and two 10 packs later I have quit. For what I spent i could have gone to the cinema this evening after hubby came home, I could have met a friend for a drink or two, I could be sitting here eating 442 of my favourite penny sweets lol
So here I am, an ex-smoker. And I will stay this way.
P.S. it's 35 minutes now