Bad times....

[nsd_user663_4943]

Hi all...............

The strangest thing has happened tonight, I went to my quitters group and bearing in mind i have been fine alllllllll day but ever since i got back i have felt, restless and spaced out and like i could smoke!

This has been one of the hardest evenings i have had for a long time and i don't really understand where it's come from. I sat telling the group how well i m getting on and how easy its been and as soon as i get home i feel like this??????

I need to be doing something but i don't know what, i feel really restless and all i can do is draw in deep breaths......................

Oh i feel like poo right now, i hope this pass's.....

Big love all Chrisps

[nsd_user663_4990]

If you've just spent the last hour among folks and the word has been there 'smoke' as it would in sessions like that, then its probably all you heard for an hour or two.

Its no wonder you get out from a session like that and feel the way you do, but if i was you, i'd probably go run a nice bath and have a soak instead for an hour.

Go pamper yourself.. you may find its just what you need. You've felt fine all day remember that, it was only the session that brought on the massive craving.. a nice bath will help relax you again.

Just advice, works for me.. and has done quite a few times when i've had a big silly craving so far.

This will pass. but explain at the next session how you felt when you got home, its better than saying you are fine if the session itself ends up bringing on a craving.

[nsd_user663_4943]

Thanks Jase,

Yea your right, i had thought it maybe the group and talking about it all, its weird tho its like its not even a craving in many ways, more of an anxious feeling/restless feeling... I feel better now i have sat on the forum for a while.....

Hope your doing ok....

Thanks Chrisps

[nsd_user663_1658]

hey chrisps78

just read youre post, i got that anxious feeling in my stomach like butterflies for quite some time.. i tried to explain to nurse a nhs cessation clinic but she looked puzzled & asked if id been depressed before in my life..well i have & i didnt want to rake up the past so just said no, she just said it was normal & that maybe i was holding onto a craving... but like you sometimes i wasnt craving the feeling was just their...so i put to the conclusion it was an empty feeling, like a loss, a uncomfortable feeling, like bereavement.. does that make sense?

Well i dont get that feeling does fade i found & pops up every so often.. but deep breathing & a bath helps like jase said.. sometimes i just excepted the feeling as the monster in my stomach wanting to be fed nicotine that slowly dies (allen carr easyway book quote) give it a read if you havent done already a very good book

well done in youre quit, how far are you now?

keep posting

[nsd_user663_4943]

Hi Kitkat,

Yea all makes perfect sense, i know i battled that loss for a while, most of it i did before quitting oddly!!! The loss was a big fear as i knew i'd feel that way..

I think Jase has rightly pointed out that sat in a group with other quitters has probably brought the whole thing on! Although reading your post it dawned on me that ever since my quit date i have been on the go constantly and tonight i just had nothing to do.. I wanted to do something but nothing was satisfying in thought enough to actually do it... I think the time has come to go back to the gym! God knows i need to!! lol!!!

I am at something like 25 days 3 and a half weeks smoke free, 5 weeks on champix.......

Thank you kitkat, Chrisps x x x

[nsd_user663_1658]

youre welcome chrisps78 glad i makes sense sometimes

hope youre still doing okay?

[nsd_user663_4990]

I find that if i'm on these forums, i think about the topic of smoking more, but not the act of having a smoke.. however if someone describes their cravings or says things like 'i REALLY need a cigarette today'.. it creates like a subliminal message of the like that your 'monster' tries to create for you, and sometimes i get like a craving. Wierd?

Other than that, i get more determination and drive when i see folk who've been quit longer posting about their new milestones, and also if i talk to the chap at work who quit in may and he describes how well he feels these days.. that all helps.

I guess its mostly when folk talk about cravings and negative feelings encounted you realise,.. actually i feel those things, i just seem to hide them well mostly??

If that makes more sense.

You get quite good at resistance to cravings.. but talking of them perhaps exposes them a bit.

[nsd_user663_3728]

Hi Chrisps

I agree with the others and think this was brought on by talking about it at your quitting group

I't normal to feel restless sometimes though and I'm sure it happened now and then even when you smoked I know ir did for me

Love

Marg xxxxxxxxx

[nsd_user663_4990]

Your doing just fine Stick with the Quit it will be worth every grotty feeling you have to endure when you look back.

Edited for clarity

[nsd_user663_4990]

Doing ok, day 34 and will be the end of my 5th week tomorrow.. going great guns on it now tho

I have the odd really flakey moment, but nothing horrendous like the early days and well within manageable levels

Think the end of next week i drop down to the next level patch (step 2) aswell, i decided to go the distance in the end on these patches, even though i seem to be managing very well on the step 1's.

Heres to us all eh!!!!!!

[nsd_user663_4990]

Haha! Riverdance on dimps.

Oh i've picked up a new habit now .. if i see a cigarette packet on the ground, i jump on it a number of times.. if there was any in it.. ahh well eh! cruel i know but there is something satisfying about stamping on them packets