:(mixed up day, feel totally fed up to the brink, i have decided that i smoke through boredom. Dont get me wrong i have lots of things to be getting on with but due to my 2 young children i am limited to what i can be doing..& when me time is here i am too tired or cant be bothered to do things i enjoy.. I love my children to bits, apart from when i go to work(3 afternoons a week) i am with them 24/7.........not complaining but im struggling to make myself happy(bit selfish i know)..therefore i feel that having a cig at intervals through the day would be like a treat, a reward. a boredom reliever?? although i know deep down it is none of them things.......... i just feel fed up, i know i ca ndo this quit but I am struggling terribly over weekend & up until today
going smoking clinic later to get the remainder of my course of patches so the nurse said last time because going on holiday on sunday..(only in a caravan in wales!! feel like sending my oh & kids & having a week of peace on my own at home - thats sound awful i know) & although im saving money through not smoking ive not noticed it.. which is doubley depressing just goes to show i couldnt afford it in the first place!!!