well, as the title suggests, im a new quitter. im actually on day 2, and apart from the odd electric ciggie puff, i've decided to go cold turkey.
Im 37, and have smoked 20-30 for the past 20 years.
Apart from all the health benefits that come with giving up smoking, my main reason this time was actually money. Not that I can't afford it, but working out what I spend on smoking/month, if it was a utility, i'd be looking to cancel.
You see, i can't have a fag without a drink either, not alcholic, although thats nice, Tea, orange juice, Red Bull, whatever, I just can't smoke without a drink, so imagine the extra cost when your up London working, and you have to buy a can of Red Bull, or a carton of orange just to have your fag with.
I calculated that I was probably spending Â£10 minimum a day on smoking (B&H Gold being my brand). Thats a lot of money. Add on my wifes 10/day habit, and were talking nearly Â£400/month going out the house on fags alone. Thats just crazy.
So, brought these electric ciggies a month or so ago, having tried in the past all the patches, gums, hyponsis etc, and gave it a futile attempt as always, but this Monday, after having my last Sunday night fag ever for the umpteemth time in my life, I just remembered something that I heard when I was working in the USA on a cruise ship.
About 7 years ago, im working on a cruise ship doing alcohol testing, and this guy is looking at the various shots on the table, so I say to him "would you like to try one sir?". He says to me "Son, I would love to try one, but im an alcholic, and if I tried one, i'd drink your whole table".
This got me thinking, and after reading a few web pages confirming my suspicions, I've had to admit what i've always known, that I am a addict and I have an addiction problem with ciggerettes.
I have to have a fag every hour, and although we've banned it from the car and the house, I will go outside or stop the car in whatever weather just to have my fix. If I run out of fags at 8.00am or midnight, it does not matter, I will stop whatever im doing, and head to the local BP Garage to buy my 20 B&H Gold. If were about to get in the car for a long journey, we will have our ciggie before we leave. If were about to arrive at the airport, we will cram in as many ciggies as we can before we have to go through customs. Etc Etc.
Also, in the past two years, i've noticed that my hair is getting thiner, my
skin is looking older, Im always tired, my mind is always "fuzzy", I always feel lethargic, I can't be bothered to think about anything hard, Im starting to feel weaker all the time.
So anyway, im on day 2, and day 1 was quite easy, day 2 is a bit harder, the main part is what to do instead of them little trips to the garden for a ciggie. But if I do feel weak, I just think about what that bloke said to me, and I feel strong again. Unfortunately, I will never be strong enough to just have the one fag then back to normal, same as that guy with his alcohol.