Hello All fellow quitters. Well here I am again about to venture into day 1 of quitting smoking. This time has to be it, no more failed attempts.
Done really well last year and managed almost 3 months cold turkey. My mind was positive and all was going well. Then I went out and drank and yep just the one. The spiral started and back to smoking.
Well its time to quit once and for all. About to be a father in December and do not want to be a smoking dad. I know I have to do it, but my positive mental attitude is not with me like the last time.
I know smoking does nothing for you in any aspect, but this time round have an underlying fear of not smoking. Stupid I know. I know this is it for good and stupidly feel like I need it in my life which logically I know is absurd.
Tomorrow is going to be day 1. I have no cigs left and do not intend to purchase another packet. All lighters etc have been binned and preparing myself mentally now to kick this habit once and for all.
I hate being a prisoner to the evil weed. I hate smoking but that demon keeps dragging me back. The majority of cigs lately have been making me feel like crap, yet I still stick those stupid things in my mouth. What an idiot I am.
Well this is it I will succeed this time not just for me but for my soon to be new family.
I know I am selfish smoking when my wife is pregnant, never in the house or around her. But if I do go for one I change my clothes to smoke then come back in, change my clothes and have a good wash. How bloody stupid I must be to continue this routine.
Sorry for going on, but feel the need to get this out in the open. Make me realise what an idiot I am being and realise the time is now to knock it on the head for good.
Good luck to one and all that are in the same boat. Thanks for reading and any support is greatly appreciated.