Okay I am really hating week 3!! I find myself thinking about sitting on my deck having a glass of wine and smoking 5 cigs all at once! I am constantly occupied with the thought of missing just sitting...and smoking!! YUCK! I have no motivation to do anything at home.......I have still been going to the gym and caring for my children but other than that I just want to do nothing!
It is not the type of desire or desperate frenzy that has me running out and buying cigs I have nic gum for the crankiness. It is more of a sad feeling.....a...what do I do now to relax? How do I spend my time? I know the answer...how about being productive...I just don't feel like it right now! I think one thing that is truly helping me other than this forum and the gum is this hypnosis CD I have been falling asleep to. Because when I start thinking about how wouldn't it be great to just sit for one night and smoke....all the things I hated about smoking come to my mind........I know that I could never just have that one night of carefree smoking 500 cigs and downing a gallon of wine.....I know it would become having to smoke every hour of the day all over again.
Thanks for letting me vent! I am staying strong......it is just hard sometimes to let that part of my life go.
Quit 7 Day 18: 39 year old mom of 4 , 24 year smoker: 20-30 a day