oh dear after feeling so positive for so long now tonight has been THE test! something just happened that made me think **** all this I want a cigarette right now. i went out of the house but never even got to the point of taking my purse out of my bag sat in the car and cried my eyes out, gathered my thoughts and went home without giving in. im still on the edge and thats why im posting in here. im fighting with myself cos i want one but i know that really i dont want one. argggghhhhhhhh!!!!!!
i know its not going to make me feel any better, i hate the smell of it on others and how that made me smell too but what is it that knowing all this I could still have one, apart from the fact theres no shop open near me and I cant drive anywhere. I know in the morning I will be proud that i never gave in but hell this is hard:(:(:(