dont know if i like this for tomorrow!!!

[nsd_user663_1658]

mmm not sure if i like remainder of the first week part for my posting tomorrow dosnt feel as special as in days lol x

[nsd_user663_4482]

hello kiti.

hey cut the bs young girl, like chrissie says you will be soon into weeks and months-like myself you are nervous.

and so you should be, this is the strongest drug in the world.

your a winner kita, come join in on the oxygen high your missing out on!

hehe

love

jamie

xxxxxxxxxxx

[nsd_user663_1658]

day 4 going okay

ha ha yeah i am here into day 4 - think i like being called a young girl jamiestar at 36 lol & chrissie v i can wait for the day when i am in months it will be a miracle ... well today woke up in bad mood didnt sleep too well due to weather so just put it down to that. Put my patch on (turning into a ritual now already) then i got on i with the day, school run then work this annoon ... whoops checked my patch n it was half hanging off (wasnt sure when it had happened) i kind of panicked went the toilets to re fix it somewhere else.... then i panicked again & kind of thought wot if all the nicotine is out!!! stupid thought but i didnt feel any different & just got on with my day - breaktime smokers through the window!!eek really fancied on but kind of thought that they envy me & it shouldnt be the other way round.. the rest of the day as been easier .. thinking of tomorrow without fags!!! making me feel a bit depressed but my other half said i should be pleased & proud & not sad....ive got to keep thinking i am not being deprived of anything nice or good & from previous quit attempts i know only too well that once you give in giving up - the cigarette not only tastes foul but i remember getting a feeling of "why did i do that" & i also remember crying because i had .... so anyway i keep on going & be proud of today for now..because i am just not smoking for today xx thanks for listening to me