I am Raven and I am on day 5 of my latest-and last quit.
I have never been this far before without "just a taste" and am feeling proud of myself.
I have tried everything from prescription meds, shots, patches, hypnosis...nothing breaks the cycle for me.
This time I tried something new. I created my own self hypnosis tape using my own voice. I stopped smoking @ 9 pm Sat. night and the first 3 days were easy! No real cravings-no serious withdrawal. Usually I withdrawal so bad I am shaking and throwing up. None of that this time!
I am using the occasional Commit lozenge to help with the "Out of the Blue" type of situational craves. I am finding, on the whole, that this quit is easier and solid. I listen to my tape every night. I programed it for everything that I could think of that made it easy for me to fail before--such as seeing smoking objects or feeling stress. I programed it so that in a stressful situation-I say a certain word and I immediately start to relax with no need for a smoke. It is really helping a lot. I think the fact that, since it is my own voice I am hearing, I am more likely to trust in it and to believe in it.
Having said all that, yesterday and today have not been as easy as the first 3 days and I do not understand why. I was a pack and a half a day smoker for 24 years and the first 3 days of a quit usually have me throwing up, in serious pain, and almost violent in rage....none of that this time....yet today is worse than yesterday and I am missing smoking to a small degree and an in a bad mood. I have decided I really do need the support of a forum. I think I thought if I ignored it all, since it started so easy, that not focusing on it would make it all a piece of cake. I think now a little support would make it better.
I think I am more afraid than anything else..afraid I will fail and start smoking again. The pull is so strong sometimes. The "just one" mentality is creeping in. I am realizing how every thing I ever did in life was accompanied by smoking and now I am having to do all these things without that aid. I do not know how--I am learning how.
I keep telling myself things like "Non smokers do not need to smoke between work projects and neither do you," and "A non-smoker would not even consider smoking in this situation-it is silly-you are a non smoker so you certainly don't need to consider it either."
The programed word I use is "Free." When I start stressing or craving I say or think the word and it does drop the effect quite a bit--but I am frustrated and afraid.
Sunday I was so tired I literally could not get out of bed except to use the rest room. I didn't let it bother me as I marked it up to my body helping me get through day 1.
Monday at work I was real tired. Tuesday I was real tired and fuzzy headed. Wed I was clearer of head and had more energy but the cravings were stronger. Today they are stronger still but do not last long.
I hope to be able to help others and I hope to use the support of others to hold on to my quit. I do feel good about it-I just find the increase at day 5 to be troubling. Is it really going to get easier?