Hello guys and gals.
*said in her most authentic impression of the Big Brother narrators voice - which is very authentic since I'm a Geordie*
'Day 5 in the stop smoking forum...'
Well, Day 5 is officially over at the stroke of 5pm - in 7.5 hours. I've never ever gotten this far before, I've always relented and had a few puffs off of a cigarette, which has then progressed into me having just 'one a day' and then it's gradually crept back up to my regular habit...
I'm pretty excited... If I get through today I'm in unchartered territory - how exciting
Having never gotten through a weekend before either, I'm super excited to get through til Monday - I think it'll do wonders for my confidence..
I can't describe how good I'm feeling already - physically AND mentally - and to know that this feeling only improves for the first year.. well.. I just can't wait. I'm so proud of myself..
My Daddy's very happy with me also.. He stopped smoking around 15 years ago and although he's quite possibly THE worst ex-smoker I know, his intentions ared in the right place.
I expect he blames himself for my bad habit somewhat, and he probably feels guilty because of that - because he's well aware of the damage. Of course, ultimately, I've only ever had myself to blame for MY smoking, I'm an adult afterall - but I don't think that changes the way he feels about it anyway..
He even offered to give me £500 if I made it to 6 months without smoking, but I turned down the offer.. The not smoking and having beaten it is reward enough.
That being said, I told him to ask me again in 6 months time, 'Would you like £500?' Haha
Himself is being VERY supportive, as per usual.. No matter how many times I have professed to quitting in the past and how many times I either haven't even started to make an attempt, or I've had a failed quit - each new time I attempt to quit, he believes me wholeheartedly and doesn't remind me of past fails..
Sometimes, his unconditional support (unconditonal *everything*) makes me feel like puking onto the floor - he's like The Perfect Partner personified.. It can be a bit much sometimes - though I'd never swap him and let some other girl benefit from his exceptionally kind and loving nature.. Mine mine mine.
I keep having a few hairy moment, but I surprise myself at my mental strength each time.. Even though my body and mind are begging me for a cigarette, my resolve and want NOT to smoke is just so much bigger.
I only really have around 2-3 MAJOR cravings per day - funny that, since I smoked roughly every 2 hours. Surely I should be having a major craving every 2 hours? It just goes to show how much was habit and how much is an actual crave for the nicotine..
I do recall, one time, the smoking cessation advisor telling us that your body only needs the tiniest little hit of nicotine to be satisfied, you could halve your intake and your bnody wouldn't realise as long as it was getting some.
I've been cutting my 21mg patches in half since day 2 and havent noticed any difference from a full patch - apart from I don't get the 'dead leg/arm' - though bizarrely, I secretly like that feeling, it's almost like a cleansing ache, very theraputic considering the cause and the reason behind the cause...
Anyway, sorry for waffling on (if you didn't get bored half-way downa dn have read til the end)..
Hope you're all getting on fantastically :cool: