New to this forum and hoping it's going to be of massive benefit.
I'm a 24 year old female from the North-East of England. I have a 6 year old son and a 10 week old son and I am desperate to stop smoking, which will hopefully discourage my children from smoking when they are older; leading by example.
I live with my wonderfully supportive partner, Him - who doesn't and has nedver smoked.
I'm also desperate to stop for my own health. I've been smoking since I was 12 years of age - though never smoked properly until I was 16 years old and could afford to fund the habit.
When I was between the ages of 22 and 23 I suffered my first ever panic attack and ever since have been plagued by anxiety regarding my breathing and whether or not I'm breathing fully and deeply enough. Smoking is clearly having a detrimental effect upon my anxiety and panic attacks and I feel if I can successfully stop, I'll be able to start the correct road to dealing with these issues - as well as improving my general health.
My panic attacks are extreme dilbilitating, I hate it when the weather is warm with no breeze as I feel like there is no air - I then obviously pollute my lungs and it exaggerates the issue. I feel like I get out of breath breathing, but its really the worry that I can't breathe properly which sends my heart racing and makes my breathing appear more shallow and makes me feel all tingly and generally awful.
I've just bought Wii Fit and have joined an aqua aerobics class twice a week at my 6 year olds school - 1 hour of swimming and then 1 hour of aqua aerobics on a Monday and Wednesday night.
I'm currently using the largest strength nicotine replacement patches and I also have an inhalator and nicotine cartridges to help replace the hand-to-mouth habit.
This is my 3rd serious attempt at quitting and I have never gotten past 5 days before. That being said, I've never used a stop smoking forum before either.
I figure a pregnancy forum got me through 9 months of pregnancy - towards the end I had virtually no lung capacity but continued to smoke - but it helped to keep me busy and helped emotionally. I'm really hoping sharing this experience with others via a forum will really help me also - moral support from people who know what I'm going through.
I've created a sticker chart so my son can award me a star each day I go without smoking - this helps to get him involved as he is always asking me when I will stop and telling me it says on the packet 'smoking kills' - it makes me feel so terrible that he thinks I'm going to die.. It makes me feel worse to realise that I am slowly killing myself by smoking; or at least speeding up the inevitable.
I've also made a dedicated money jar to save Â£2.50 per day which is the usual cost of my normal 10-a-day habit of Richmond Kingsize Smooth.
Non of my family or friends smoke at all - both immediate and extended, and to be honest, I'm almost jealous. Smoking has been 'my thing' for so long, I'm just nervous to do it - what will I do when my 6 year old is driving me up the wall? What will I do to reward myself after I;ve successfully met my babys needs and he has fallen asleep. How will I round off that perfect meal I;ve just eaten?
Sorry for a long first post and waffling on. Looking forward to starting this difficult journey with you all.. I figure this can't be any more painful or anymore psychologically trying than getting through 42 weeks of pregnancy and then childbirth with no pain relief. I'm definitely going to give this my all.