Day 35

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Sorry, this is going to be a long post, this is my personal reflection after 1 month of being a non smoker, I will post this both in both day 1 and month 1. Hopefully this help others to reflect on there addiction if still smoking, or provide inspiration and an insight to what month 1 feels like if you are at an early stage of your quit.

Day 35

I completely forgot to post when I hit my month 1 milestone, but I have become so relaxed with the whole being a non smoker that I’ve lost track of time.

Relaxing being the important word, I still remember how I used to believe that smoking would help me chill out after a stressful event or nightmare day at work, but really all I was doing was riding the smokers roller coaster – yes I would feel more relaxed after a cigarette – but more relaxed than what?, I now know that the only reason I felt relaxed was because I had fulfilled my never ending up and downs of nicotine – I was never really relaxed I was just feeling less stressed than a smoker suffering from withdrawl.

Now I know what real relaxation is – Not going to the shops late at night because I only have one cig left in a box, not worrying when at a meeting I might get a chance to smoke, not enduring horrible weather to stand outside to smoke, not having a car that wreaks of cigarette smoke, not having to join the other social outcasts huddled together ‘enjoying’ there fix – telling each other how great smoking is whilst consuming there carcinogenic costly sticks.

Now I am free, Now I truly know what relaxation is.

I don’t suffer from withdrawl symptoms, I don’t have craves, these are all in the mind, all I now get is the occasional thought that ‘this is when I would have had a smoke’, I am in control of that thought.

Having been quit for over a month, I now see how non smokers see smokers:, or rather should I say smell smokers – I am really ashamed to think that I used to go out smelling of so much stale smoke, now that I am a non smoker and my sense of smell has returned you can smell a smoker from 10 feet away, and really its not pleasant!

I no longer wake up coughing my lungs up, blaming it on a recurrent cold, I’m no longer out of breath just going out for a walk, I no longer feel tired all the time – because now I can breathe.

I now notice the smokers, you can miss them really, they are the ones who look older than they are with pale skin from lack of oxygen saturation – they are the ones looking so fretful all the time, they don’t even need a watch they can calculate time by how much they need a cigarette.

I can now really taste and enjoy food, even more than when I was a smoker.

I have nearly £1,600 extra to spend each year, cigarettes used to steal this money from me.

I used to be a nicotine drug addict, Now after a month of cold turkey I am free.

You can also be free, if you are thinking of quitting then stop today – don’t remain a slave to nicotine.

Natallie

I have been quit for 1 Month, 4 Days, 13 hours, 50 minutes and 51 seconds (34 days). I have saved £145.91 by not smoking 691 cigarettes. I have saved 2 Days, 9 hours and 35 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 15/04/2009 00:30