Thanks to everyone for the welcome back and big up to all my buddies who are still out there fighting this horrible addiction 
I have had a million attempts at quitting as you all know, but I have had lots of breaks from smoking including a 10 year quit (Yeah I know :eek:), a four year quit, a one year quit and the odd 3 months or so every now and again !!! I have noticed every time I decided i want to quit again after restarting it can take me from one to two years to do it !!!! This addiction is BAD, HEROIN addicts have a higher success rate (FACT !!!!). 1 in 40 will manage to stop smoking , work that out, thats some powerful BAD A** addiction !! But we all know that dont we, we hate it, we know its killing us and we still do it WTF !!!! BUT ADDICTIONS CAN BE BEATEN, ITS NOT ALWAYS EASY and accepting that is important for your confidence.... dont beat yourself up if you fail, it only adds to the misery that you already feel for being a smoker, just keep at it again and again and again... if you want it bad enough it will happen, and sorry guys but if you dont want it bad enough you will fail ( myself included) !
I am drawing on every ounce of strength, knowledge from members on here, and from my own quit attemps to make this time the REAL DEAL .
Heres the good news for anyone who has never been to the other side and lived a smoke free life !!! That battle is so worth it, I was a 10,000 metre runner in my 30s so I know how a body at peak fitness feels like, and I know how a body sufforcating in NICOTINE and poison feels like !!! BELIEVE ME THERE IS NO COMPARISON TO THE WAY WE ALL FEEL NOW AS SMOKERS TO HOW WE FEEL AS A NON SMOKER, THERE JUST ISNT..... THAT KNOWLEDGE IS IN MY BRAIN, THATS HOW I KNOW IT DOESNT MATTER HOW LONG IT TAKES ME I WILL STOP AND I HOPE YOU ALL DO TOO!!! Its like being reborn honestly and I want that feeling back
I have had enough DAY ONE experience to know what to expect, its how we deal with it that matters !!!
I usually find the cravings are either non stop ,in which case I wait for another day to quit (as this battle is more in the mind than than the body believe me , THE JUNKIES FAVOURITE MIND GAMES are to say "JUST SMOKE TODAY, YOU CAN STOP TOMORROW, YOU HAVE DONE IT BEFORE ITS EASY" or "JUST CUT DOWN, SMOKE ONE CIGARETTE A DAY LESS AND LET YOUR BODY GET USED TO NOT HAVING AS MUCH NICOTINE", we all have our own personal JUNKIE trying to trick us into feeding it !!! THE MIND OF A JUNKIE, THATS ALL IT IS, THATS WHAT WE ARE..... ) or not really too bad as i will probably have a cart load of nicotine in me from the previous day !!!
12.30 - Twelve and a half hours in, nicotine levels are depleting and i am feeling more tingly than ever.. this is great my oxygen levels are coming back to normal and i believe the carbon monoxide levels are back to normal. Feel light headed and cant concentrate properly but hey .... Im healing every minute
16.00 - Feeling a bit light headed, chest feels a bit tight and whilst i was out with the dog I was coughing and spitting phlegm(sorry I know its not nice!!) . Have had 3 cups of coffee today, thats way to much caffeine when your doing nicotine withdrawal. Its best to drink water i know, but Im not good at it... will try better 
Being snappy and why is there other people inhabiting my orbit, annoying me by getting in my way and possibly just by breathing !!!! Finding concentration hard too... all these are standard physical withdrawal symptoms... and all of them pass
20.00 - Really really ratty and irritable. Feeling very light headed, and tingly, I know its an oxygen overload and I know it will pass .... nearly done a full day not had any real cravings as such. Just dealing with the physical withdrawal symptoms which are not actually really BAD at all...just a bit uncomfortable .
BE REPORTING BACK SOON
KEEPING STRONG LIKE THE ENGLISH BULL TERRIER
EBT GIRL
