Well I'm in the big room as from today, can't believe I've managed a whole year without the ciggies, how quickly it's passed too.
Had a really bad start to the year. I always thought I'd relapse when anything happened to any of my beloved girls (dogs) Well the worst thing happened on 15 Jan, my sweetest softest, youngest little girl had been ill for a few months then developed a aggressive tumour, we had her pts at home and then took her to the pet cemetery where we had her cremated and then brought her home where she belonged.
She was on my knee the week before looking at me lovingly and I said to her "You wouldn't want me to start smoking again Rosie so I'm saying now that even though it will be hard and my heart will break, I will not smoke again for you". I know you're supposed to do it for yourself but promising Rosie this made all the difference and I got through it without my crutch.
So I'm pleased with myself for passing a major hurdle there (with Rosie's help of course). Sounds daft when I tell people I promised a dog not to smoke but to me it meant everything and it's one promise I will keep forever.
So keep up the fight peeps, if I can do it anybody can, that's for sure.