Bit of a long one, but just want to tell you about the collective willpower exercised last night...The background to this story is that both myself and my partner gave up smoking last Sunday night at midnight. He had been smoking roll ups for about 16 years.
The story is that we went out for a few drinks, with turned into several more drinks with my partner....we ended up staggering to a bar with no cash, and the minimum spend on a bank card was a 10er. My partner got a drink in each, and asked the barman if he sold fags - which he did so he bought some. He asked me which brand I wanted and I said - I don't care as I won't be having any.
Anyhoo he (my partner) then says to me shall we go and stand outside with our drinks (i.e let go have a fag) so I said to him, 'Nah, that's ok, you go, I'll wait here, I'm really not interested in having a fag. Theres no point' I didn't say anything about him smoking - its his decision after all - ...but obviously had an effect, as he said - 'ah your right - there is no point, I won't have one', and he's given the fags to one of his work mates today.
I did say to him after we got back though how important it was for me that he didnt' smoke that night though...that is meant a lot to me that he is still not smoking along with me......I couldn't say anything at the time in case it was seen as 'emotional blackmail' (I'm a recovering addict to fags - I know how a crazy addict mind works! Any excuse to get p*ssed off and have a fag!)
The funny thing is, last night I thought to myself, yeah I could have a fag - I was a bit p*ssed, and theres a real association with smoking and drinking for me...but the actual thought of putting a fag in my mouth and inhaling was...well....gross really - I thought about my nice clear (well clearish!) lungs, and just really didn't want a fag at all! And I had a real feeling of 'whats the point?' as well, if I had had a fag, it would have meant feeling bad today, and going through all the hassle of giving up again.
Also, the thought of all of you who have posted here who have made it to 1 week / 1 month / 2 months etc....it can be done! And I know I'm strong enough to not smoke.
So, despite the slight hangover today, I'm feeling pretty good about myself....I'll find out later if my partner is as well...I'm working from home today but he went into work with a banging hangover...poor thing