Sorry not posted much, have been reading though. Lots of problems round here at the moment. One of my older sisters has Alzheimers (she started with it at aged 57) (9 siblings of which myself and sister are the youngest), we've been having a hard time of it lately and now to top the lot life has been so cruel, her husband got diagnosed with it yesterday. We knew he was getting bad but thought it was the stress of looking after my sis etc etc. Her daughters have been told they are likely to get it too so you can imagine what it's been like.
Anyway to cut a very long story short, I blipped on Saturday night and had ONE puff,:eek: it was horrible, and then I cried all night for doing it. I have not been near another since, so not taking that into account it will be 4 weeks tomorrow since I had my last full cig (and only had that one the whole day). I hadn't smoked 2 days previous to that but went from my last full one.
Hope you all forgive me as I'm having a hard time of it this week (I could kill one) Plus couldn't get any patches from the chemist as she was busy and wanted me to wait over half an hour, I find they dismiss you because you're getting something for free and think you should wait till they're ready (it only takes a minute to sign the form). haha, I said "Never mind I'll going and buy some fags instead", don't worry I haven't.
Sorry for the rant guys, just a bit down with life and myself at the moment.