I'm gunning to be sitting right over there tomorrow, besided the hibiscus and the beer fridge... Damn right... so pumped that this is now the longest i have gone without a blip, or a cig at all since I was 16. wish i could say i feel great... but my mind is still clouded with thoughts and craves... i've read a few books on the subject, and still cannot stop thinking that i have sacrificed something... on the other hand... I have gained the respect of many people, and my wife has a list of things she hated about my smoking, and so do I. I am reading my list, as it is written down in my wallet multiple times a day. And, always in the back of my mind is my wifes words while i was still smoking, and kind of hiding how much from her... "I give up on you, you will always be a smoker, I have to realize that." Harsh, but those words cut like a knife, and are the big reason I have stuck with this so far. She said those words in the fall, so its not like I immediately dove into the quit, I had to work up to it, as I'm not as strong as my front. I really really really hope someone invents something to smoke that won't hurt me in the next year or so. "Bangs head off of wall". I can do this... I will not smoke. I will not let down FM. I will not let down m'lady. I will not let down myself. I will not become one of those that I now pity. I will drink water until I am swimming, but I will not smoke. So hard... but... I plan to live the last five years of her life by her side, not as a picture on a mantel. "Bites the top off of a plastic water bottle" Here we go with another friggen day.
Peeks his giant horned head into the new room. - No Smoking Day
Peeks his giant horned head into the new room.
Awww Having a bad day vike? Sorry to hear that.
Hey, guess what? You'll never believe this...!!! Oh drat, look at the time, I'll post again when I have picked bratling up!!!
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what... finish the thought!! lol you bugger.
Now, where was I....
Quote: Hey, guess what? You'll never believe this...!!! Oh drat, look at the time, I'll post again when I have picked bratling up!!!
I'm on the edge of my seat over here!
Hey vike, im like you, no matter how many books / web sites i read and no matter how many times im told, i still believe i have sacrificed something, although i have limited cravings and i feel good its like i have lost a good buddy in the cigg, crazy !!!!
Bad day eh? You dont need me to say "stay strong, the team are here should you need us" you know that.
Everyone, I will be at the inlaws (insert awkward groan here) for the long weekend, I will see you mondayish, if i don't get to post tonight when i get home. Stay strong with your quits, and I will endure mine I will be breathing easy in week four on Monday when I post. take care,
Vike.
Seems like we are all off. I will be in Switzerland as from tomorrow back next wednesday, so all those reading this post, i wish you all a great easter, chill out, relax and enjoy!!
*wonders if the viking has fallen off his seat yet*
Have a great time with the family! If you're drinking, do not let your guard down! No ciggies!! Trust me, you don't wanna be feeling my wrath...do you? :eek: *is crap at acting hard*
Hey meeru, you too have a great trip. Think of me. Sat here on my puter like a sad fork 'cos I have nowt else to do hahah No, not really. Gonna try and go to the beach for one of the days if I can bear to bring myself to cut into my lil bit of savings I have! Haven't put much of the money up yet tho...arrghh
Have fun everybody else too! Don't eat too many eggs...:eek:
Hey meeru, you too have a great trip. Think of me. Sat here on my puter like a sad fork 'cos I have nowt else to do hahah No, not really. Gonna try and go to the beach for one of the days if I can bear to bring myself to cut into my lil bit of savings I have! Haven't put much of the money up yet tho...arrghh
Thanks Maddy, try and get yourself to that beach, Which one?, whatever you do enjoy the weekend, i think we all deserve a break its been a long few weeks but its been alot of fun with many laughs.
That's okay, I'll tidy up the 1 month room while everyone is swanning off enjoying themselves. Don't worry about me being alone and wanting a fag.
Hang on, when do I go into the 2 month room (think we've had this topic somewhere before) I'm always late with everything. Not sure though if it's the start of 2 months or later on (my head is up my a--e at the moment).
I'm working Friday and Saturday, OH is working Fri, Sat and Sun. Hopefully we'll be able to do something with the girls on Monday (the 4 dogs, not children). They do love a icecream after a good run on Ainsdale beach or Talacre beach. And I love a good pint, he can drive.
Have a good time everyone, hurry back though.
I guess Viking takes up residence in here today! I told him its his turn to decorate this time so I hope he is getting on with that I left the colour up to him...:eek:
I also requested a large beanbag...