Menu
Have an account? Log in
Health tools
    Health topics
    Search No Smoking Day
    No Smoking Day
    2,584 members • 31,315 posts

    I feel like Jamie Oliver's chicken

    Like a chicken to slaughter. That's where nic took me today.

    I can't really explain it other than to say that I crashed. I knew I was flakey and said to myself "Don't go out, just stay in today" but I had to and in Asda I was hanging around the kiosk probably looking suspiscious. Before I got arrested for loitering, there I was with 10 bennies in my hand. I only intended to have one and throw the rest away but I had a really good idea - I will smoke them all before kids come home and that will be the end of it.

    Of course that hasn't happened. I have told o/h. Don't really think he could care less so I have not thrown the rest away but will run out tonight and be back on tomorrow or at least this weekend.

    So I guess I am back to the bottom of the mountain.

    Day 5/6 has always been my sticking point but this time I found it really hard. Don't give up on me.

    There's a saying isn't there? ...

    "It's not over till the fat lady sings". Well I'm not fat and I'm not a singer.

    I didn't actually feel that bad at the time, I was so tired and fed up I felt I had had it up to the back teeth but I do curse myself for not just doing a bit more. I do feel bad now though and tomorrow I will feel even worse as I have to go through the whole thing all over again.

    Let this be a warning to people who are wavering - DONT - just do one more day and you will be fine. Look at me now having to go through it from scratch AND I have reminded my brain how much I like it.

    You have all been so supportive this last week and I really appreciate it. I am not on here to take the p**s. I am really serious. It sounds like an excuse but I have a lot of personal problems and I suppose its just me and nic who have time to think.

    I'll be back (Terminator for those who are too young/old). Don't give up on me just yet. Good luck and congrats to all who have made it beyond today. You will see me back on day 1 although I might just forgive myself for a blip.

    Love and best wishes to all quitters. Ruth xxxxxxxxxxxxx

    6 Replies
    oldest • newest

    Hi Ruth, don't beat yourself up. You have just had a little blip. Yesterday for me, funnily enough, was probably the hardest day so far too. :( Start over again soon, and when you get to the same day again, sheer determination will get you through. You WILL NOT be beaten second time around. :) Good luck. Come back soon. :)

    Josie

    Reply

    Ruth

    So sorry to here of your slip and thats what you must put it down to just a slip. dont give in Just get back on the wagon and move on. to be honest the last 2 days have been a nightmare for me and so very pleased I am here on day 12 Linda xxxxxx Ps we are all here for you

    Reply

    Hi Ruth, agree with linda and kapper, you shouldn't be beating yourself up over this one little blip. I think it could happen to anyone if the circumstances were right - so it's really a bit of bad luck and not something to blame yourself for. That's my view for what it's worth;)

    Reply

    All I can say is thank you. You are all brilliant. I have myself booked in on Monday at the docs for a smoking cessation counselling psychobabble slot. With you here, I don't think I need it.

    As I say, I am not trying to excuse my weakness but if I can just sort out my other problems ... I am making excuses aren't I?

    The last time I went to a smoking cessation meeting, the Counsellor had never smoked in his life and this next one is the same. Somehow, I don't think they can get on a level with me. I don't mean to sound ungrateful but nobody can tune in to an addict's brain like an addict. These guys are doing it to make themselves feel worthwhile but it's not for me. You guys are for me.

    I am having a day off but ...

    I'LL BE BACK - BE AFRAID, BE VERY AFRAID!!!

    R x

    Reply

    Ruth dont give up giving up. Try some NRT or Champix, give it another go. We are all here to keep chatting to you and not one of us is perfect so dont worry to much about it. xxx

    Reply

    Ruth Ruth Ruth !!!!!!! just read this ... NOOOOOO !!!

    Bless you ..... get back on you horse again we are all here and ready to support you !!!!

    From what I have read you are well aware of yourself and what has just happend :)

    This will make you stronger this time round. dont quit quitting -x-

    Reply

    You may also like...

    Related Posts

    Popular Posts

    Content on HealthUnlocked does not replace the relationship between you and doctors or other healthcare professionals nor the advice you receive from them.
    © 2018 All rights reserved.

    Company

    Product

    Support