I have time to add to this whilst waiting for my boy's judo whites to dry. Yes its late but my washer has just flooded - nice! not.
My eldest has known for ages that I smoke but doesn't challenge me about it. It has been a tabooo subject. I know he knows and he knows I know he knows!!! Instead I think he has just been a bit unhappy and disappointed in me. He has caught me loads of times but now I can go anywhere in the house and I know I don't smell. He can come into the kitchen (I only smoked by back door) and I'm not diving out of the stable door. The door isn't open when it's blowing a gale outside. It was one of the reasons for really trying this time.
I have decided not to tell him yet that I have stopped as we haven't really discussed me doing it in the first place, if that makes sense. I am just hoping that it all goes away like a bad dream and any sense my kids have of me smoking will just become something of a distant memory - at least until they are older when of course, if challenged, I shall simply say they were imagining it and it was granny who smoked, not me!!!
Walking past the kiosk in any shop is so empowering.
Going to school with no fear of stinking.
Not having to carry mints with me everywhere.
To cap it all, I took some pre-Christmas stuff to charity shop yesterday and what a revelation. The whole place stank. People stank of fags, the clothes stank. I don't mind charity shops but I hadn't realised mine stank so much.
Hey, it's true, after a go on the forum, it's almost day 5. Goodnight to anyone still up. I will be up for a while waiting for these ***** whites to dry but I still have wine.
Oh and another thing ... I may as well do this as I am waiting for the dryer to finish and of course I must finish my wine ...
My parents in law do not know I smoke. I have been married for 11 years but they live south and we live north so never the twain etc.
I never told them as I didn't want to disappoint them and always thought I would stop. I didn't.
When they came for New Year all I can think about is "well it goes dark at 4.00pm so I can sneak outside" which I did, regularly. I did that much sneaking about and then I would have to come in and go to the bathroom for a wash and do my teeth etc.
It sort of made me resent them being here because I couldn't smoke when I wanted to. That's how selfish it can make you.
I wore that much perfume, my mother in law must think I am such a tart whereas I am just a filthy smoker. Sorry, WAS a filthy smoker. R x
Can I be cheeky and send you my cricket whites this summer...? You sound very dedicated!!!
It does sound like a bit of a comedy sketch up there Ruth… but I totally know where you are coming from… I had been trying to conceal the smell of smoke on cloths for years….from work, parents and friends....
John, of course you can send me your whites. I'm sure the entire neighbourhood is sneaking their laundry into my house anyway otherwise how can anyone have so much. You could be sure they would not be coming back to you smelling of fragrant fags. On dedication - until now I only seem to have been dedicated to killing myself. Not any more.
Boudee, being the sort of person who likes to finish a job properly, of course I tried my best to finish the bottle but without nic to assist I was just too fatigued. If nic had been here there wouldn't have been an issue. Another good reason not to.
It seems to me that what's best is to be put in a straight jacket and locked in a room for a very, very long time. The jacket can be taken off for periods of time and if you can stand listening to, say, the spice girls for example (no offence to any fan) for an hour or so, you can be released and trusted to have perseverence. I couldn't listen to the sg for an hour so I have failed.
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