Tonight I just succeded in getting over an argument with hubby WITHOUT SMOKING, and I feel amazingly satisfied!
The scary things:
a) once we started arguing with each other I immediately started obsessing over cigarettes - sorry, but to say "thinking" about them wouldn't do justice to the actual strenght of my cravings
b) I spent a few pretty AWFUL minutes really freaking out repeating to myself OK, I get it, this is where I light up a cigarette and screw it up big time :eek:
The awesome thing:
I eventually decided "hells NO!!!!!!" I managed to collect myself, rationalize the situation, get rid of emotions and make the very lucid decision that I was not going to light up a smoke. I have no idea how I managed
And then instead of losing it like I usually do when we argue I became this calm, reasonable person - he's always the obnoxious, calm one :rolleyes: - and I ended up taking control over things and feeling proud about myself like never before.
Boy, but it was intense!