Well here I am.. made it to day 5, so far the day hasn't been that great. I'm sitting here bubbling and snottering and I've been doing that for a few hours now. I can't really figure out why I'm bubbling, just feeling a bit lost and upset. Some thoughts did go through my head about smoking, about how I feel like a bit of myself has gone, me so******ing with a fag, me having a cup of tea with a fag, me laughing or debating with a fag, sounds stupid eh? At the moment I don't feel like I'll be able to do any of these things again, another stupid thought. I tell myself it's stupid and that it's just my addiction but why doesn't it tell my hormones that?
I made an appointment with my school psychologist on Friday. I don't know whether she'll be able to help but anything's worth a bash. Autumn and stopping smoking are having a real fun effect