Day 71......

[nsd_user663_1966]

I should be celebrating right now I guess.

Problem is I'm still suffering with this anxiety thing, feeling really tense for days on end for no reason. I'm battling on because I thought it would eventually subside, and I'd be back to me but without the fags, but it's week eleven and it's not improving. Cigarettes just don't cross my mind now and being in the company of other smokers doesn't affect me at all. I have no desire at all to start smoking again, but god I just want to feel normal. I get a few days of feeling okay and I'm hopeful that things are resloving themselves then I'm hit by three or four days on the trot of feeling as tight as a piano wire (for want of a better term).

Have thought about speaking to the doc about it but I just don't have confidence in GP's to deal with anything other than a standard selection of ailments so I don't wanna take time off work on a wasted venture.

[nsd_user663_1966]

Hi Boudee,

Thanks for your words of encouragement. That's where this board is so invaluable. I have tried various over the counter stuff including valerian and st johns wort, omega 3 oil and other stuff. I so hope that eventually I'll just sail out of the other side of this. Thing is last time I quit for 9 months I remember going through a whacky phase, but can't remember if things had improved by month 9 when I stupidly caved on new years eve.

Thing is I'm capable of toughing through this for a while longer yet, but I think realistically I need to set a deadline beyond which I have to concede that I'll have to go see the doc and get help.

[nsd_user663_1704]

Heya Dicky x x

Try Boudees Kalms (not hers personally go get your own!! :p)

I have heard all good with that.

I would say I clicked into place at around week 15-16 It did become a bit hard again before that time, like god how can I continue like this!!

Then poof gone!! I hope it comes for you around the same time x x x x

Good luck Dicky x x

Miss all your wit and pics around here

Keep posting x x

Lots of love

~Buffy x x

[nsd_user663_2136]

Hi DB, the lofty heights of months and year(s) are beyond my ken as yet, so i can't offer advice but I can say: I wish you all the good luck in the world and if willing someone to succeed can help, then you will 'cos I am!

Does that make any sense at all. Probably not.img116.exs.cx/img116/6469/g...

[nsd_user663_1966]

Thank you guys, and yes Steve it does make absolute sense. Sometimes coming on this board is like recharging your motivation batteries because of the people who are very genuinely willing us on.

Boudee (lol) thank **** for that - only a year. I'll have lost all my friends, my job and probably killed someone if I have to go through another 9 months of this - p'raps I just need to get pregnant. What do I have to do?:rolleyes: .

Seriously though I need to do something cos I'm starting to shut myself off. Have been staying in a lot more than usual - was supposed to be out in Islington tonight with my ex work colleagues - normally I'd be there with bells on, but just can't face the thought of it. I've been doing a lot of that recently. Instead I'm off up the local shortly but could easily talk myself out of that too.

Anyway Buffy - will find an nice witty pic to post just for you.

Thank you all

Dicky