Hi everyone,
I'm doing kinda good, no headaches, no nausea, no other special symptoms, no avoiding smokers, I sleep well at night, I feel very good in the mornings, very strong, very determined and absolutely positive I'll be successful. Ok! Now for the shitty part : things start getting slightly worse later in the afternoons, and they get definitely worse after dinner, when I can't really seem to to do nothing but sit and obsess over the thought of smoke until I go to bed - on day 3 I cried my eyes dry for half an hour due to sheer frustration, yesterday I only cried for a minute, and in between laughters Tonight I managed to just laugh the cravings away with hubby's help, by having a frantic and silly conversation kinda like "I want a sigarette!" "Are you really sure? is that what you want?!" "YES! but it's the monkey talking, not me! so don't mind me while I say GIVE ME A FRIKIN SIGARETTE NOW!" Of course I didn't have the sigarette, we giggled together like two loons and that got me kind of distracted...BTW, hubby's a smoker too, but he managed to reduce smokes from 20 to 5 many years ago and stick to the new number...now he hasn't smoked in 3 days. And anyway he never smokes before 9 p.m. I wish I knew how he does it...
This day count is extremely interesting and helpful, though I haven't posted earlier because I'm afraid that by focusing too much on each day I might sort of trick myself into waiting for something to happen, when I just feel it won't ...I mean, what are we waiting for exactly as each day passes by? We quit smoking, I think the magic already happened