We hello all I am new to this forum but just wanted to share some of my experiences with you all, I am now on day 10 and it has been harder than I ever expected.
My husband and I had planned for 3 weeks to give up (could not get in to see the nurse) so it was like a clock ticking down for us, appointment was for 8.40am so we had our last fag at 1.00am after some drinking.
Having been approx a 20 aday smoker for 20 year (gave up twice through having children but restarted again) we thought the patches were the right way to go. My husband smoked far more than myself and thought he would need the patches as it has turned out he has gone cold turkey and is doing fabulous, where as I am on the patches and struggling.
Quitting for me has been such an emotional journey so far, I feel such a failure for having to use the patches where my husband is cold turkey, I am also very scared of failing, I have very low self estem as it is and quitting has seemed to amplify the thoughts in my head. I don't really have craving's as such other than the actual routine I had of smoking, its not that I want a cig but my routine is really out of wack. I have alway's been quite the hobbiest so It's not because I can't find anything to do with my hands or to keep my mind occupied.
The question I keep asking myself is have I actually quit like my husband has because I am using the patches after all I still have the nicoteen going into my body, my husband has found it all a breeze and I just feel like I am walking under a big black cloud all the time.
Nightmare's at night through the patches have been a big problem for me so I have tried on some nights not to wear them. I also am trying to keep the weight off I was dieting before quitting as I could do with losing a stone or so.
I feel quite depressed at night not only am I fighting quitting smoking but also I am fighting my craving for certain foods. My husband says I am trying to do to much at once, but I am a person where if any weight I put on it is very very difficult to move. I cannot afford to put on anymore weight. We normally are very outdoorsy people who love going on 5-10 mile walks at weekends but because of the weather even that is out.
I feel like the whole world is against me but common sense tells me it's not.
On the plus side I love the fact that my clothes and hair don't smell, I can smell my flower's from my garden inside my house never noticed that before.
That we will have more money all the usual benefits to being a non smoker I love.
Sorry for the long post had to have a ramble.