Hi everyone. Well I'm on day 12 already . Still getting urges to smoke although I seem to still have resistance to them. I guess its still very early days though. Hopefully they'll get less and less each day . Does it( to those further down the road )
Karen
It only gets easier x x I can promise only that much, though it doesn't disappear ever, not to depress you but to be honest. Why else would else would of I of been so stupid as to of gone back after 8 months and my sister after 3 years?!
I have had a rough time with my eldest today it's a periodic piss mum off thing he does i said he can't have his ps3 here (its at his dads his dad bought it for him, has never paid a penny in maintenance though!)
He follows me around for days saying why not? its not fair? all my friends do? etc you know the score! he bought it home to take up to his dads gf house tonight which i accepted but he's not to play on it. now yesterday and today he's been doing that following thing again to play on it. I say he needs to honour his reasoning for bringing it here, just to take to his dads gf house. But no hes begging driving me mad i have awfull headache!
he starts on the others hits them moans grunts and generally makes life hell in the house. He has maths exam on Monday he is refusing to revise for and a retake history as he got f on Tuesday, logically not! he is refusing to revise cos i wont let him have a go on ps3
He says i am taking liberties! omg grrr i am so stressed again! lolol
If he fails his exams he wont get into RAF engineer let alone the pilot that he wants! i wont go on at him he is 15 tomorrow and knows better, if he throws it away its not my fault! he can always retake his real gcse's if he fails again next year
Ahhhh look at me ranting 
can't wait for tonights wine and i may lift my 8pm start on wine rule!
Sorry guys *deep breath* smoking will not help but i want to go to that drawer!!!
i wont i wont i wont i will have my wine later and busy myself with the housework till then very glad they are off to their dads gf for the weekend! and i dont have to fuss about his bloody birthday! sorry sorry
And to boot it's my late fathers birthday today he would of been 64 but died in 2000 tomorrow is his death anni
Which point did children stop respecting their parents and expect to have everything they want?
Kk i am done hmmmm feel a bit better already 
Sorry again guys x x
Hi Buff hope things are a bit better than earlyer. These kids do try us dont they What time do they leave for there dads. Will he do some revising there over the weekend. Buff if its one thing I have learned and has you know am the mum of 4 and big sister of 9 is you can only guide them they must do the work. But hope it all pans out. When you have your glass of wine tonight have one for your dad I am sure they have big partys up there on the annis
Just dont smoke we would miss you soooooo much Love Linda
