day three is s**t

Hello all , I've moved myself over to day 3 Which is probably the ONLY thing I'm happy about right now. Do any other ex excessive cannabis users know if it's ment to get worse before better. I swear yesterday was not as bad as this. I did manage to get some sleep last night, which was novel . ( cannabis is such a sleep initiator , without it , it's very difficult ) I've also managed to eat again , but going to the docs this morning, as I'm sick every time I eat . Again , I'm sure this is my body reacting to me shovelling food in it , without the *munchies * i've been used to them triggering my appetite for the past 10 years or so .

I'm very miserable at the moment. Keep bursting into tears , Have had to bin all my *real life story* mags, which I bought to keep my mind off things . They had adverse effects , and I've spent since I woke up this morning, greeting over adulterous husbands, fat kids, and general doom and gloom.

I have the doctors this morning, to check out my sickness..... I wouldn't bother going, but the fact I'm actually starting to feel weak and hungry , and still can't hold my food down is disturbing.

Oh and a final point ..... I have started seeing cannabis ! I kid you not ! Not only did I dream about it last night ... (first dream in 10 years of using the drugs, cannabis causes many people to forget their dreams, me included)

I sat here this morning, and several times I was convinced I'd found a couple of buds on my pc desk ! Had to double check , before I realised it's my mind playing tricks on me .

I'm going to cry my way to the doctors now ... It's strange seeing people go past me , giving me sympathetic glances, as if I have something worthy of crying about ..... Thankgod they don't know !

That's all for now folks, sorry about the war n' peace.

B xxx

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nsd_user663_1704

11 years ago

Your doing the double bubble which makes it hard x x The nicotine is the real evil drug, addiction wise that is!

Feeling so Sad is usual 2nd time i gave up I was really badly crying for a few days, day 3 is the worse and a slow climb up hill to day 7 i know it sucks bad but really please stick with it x x x x just take it hour by hour, remember it won't be forever and there are improvements already. Try writing a list of positive things since quitting, and negatives of not quitting see your progress. Good idea to see dr too, quit councillors are great if you can get that there, i had one last year and it was a great quit tool. Soz i have really rushed this post as i got to go get my daughter.

Take care lots of care you deserve it hugs kisses and whatever i can offer to give you a smile.

Buffy x

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