Hello all , I've moved myself over to day 3 Which is probably the ONLY thing I'm happy about right now. Do any other ex excessive cannabis users know if it's ment to get worse before better. I swear yesterday was not as bad as this. I did manage to get some sleep last night, which was novel . ( cannabis is such a sleep initiator , without it , it's very difficult ) I've also managed to eat again , but going to the docs this morning, as I'm sick every time I eat . Again , I'm sure this is my body reacting to me shovelling food in it , without the *munchies * i've been used to them triggering my appetite for the past 10 years or so .
I'm very miserable at the moment. Keep bursting into tears , Have had to bin all my *real life story* mags, which I bought to keep my mind off things . They had adverse effects , and I've spent since I woke up this morning, greeting over adulterous husbands, fat kids, and general doom and gloom.
I have the doctors this morning, to check out my sickness..... I wouldn't bother going, but the fact I'm actually starting to feel weak and hungry , and still can't hold my food down is disturbing.
Oh and a final point ..... I have started seeing cannabis ! I kid you not ! Not only did I dream about it last night ... (first dream in 10 years of using the drugs, cannabis causes many people to forget their dreams, me included)
I sat here this morning, and several times I was convinced I'd found a couple of buds on my pc desk ! Had to double check , before I realised it's my mind playing tricks on me .
I'm going to cry my way to the doctors now ... It's strange seeing people go past me , giving me sympathetic glances, as if I have something worthy of crying about ..... Thankgod they don't know !
That's all for now folks, sorry about the war n' peace.