Anxiety or Tumor

[janeths466]

Hello everyone I am Tania and I am 21 years old.

When I was 13, I remember waking up very scared. I was in my thoughts as I fell asleep, and I had previously ate, then I felt scared and a flush of fear so I stood up wanting to use the bathroom or throw up. The days after were cloudy and depressing. I would feel dreamy and anxious in stores because of the lights and people. I got a practice neuro exam said I was fine and it was anxiety. As years passed, I developed fears of illnesses and fear of death. I would wake up with tremors, or shaking uncotrollably because I felt extremely cold. My mom would hug me and then I was fine. I also got depersonalization, it was bad. Unbalanced, ear ringing, stuffy. This all ended when I began losing weight and going to school, and life was getting better I worked out and everything.

Now, I am 21 and my life is a bit bumpy. My mom had previously been in dyalisis when my anxiety was bad, and now she got a tumor removed which was cancerous. The month was hard, I couldnt sleep and I had a heavy neck. Now she is home. I feel like half of my body is weird. I get headaches with stuffy noses on one side and teary eye. My lower back has been hurting on one side. I smelt burnt once when it was not there and google said it was a bad sign. I also have post nasal drip and allergies btw. Anyway I was at church and the lights felt bright, I got hot, and felt nauseous, I had been thinkin about my mom when this happened and was anxious. I now feel like it was seizures because of google. Today I woke up with lower back pain and a numb spot in my hip. My arm burns and feels weird. My eye feels weird. My leg too. I read a story of a kid who had a tumor for years and was barely diagnosed years after. I am panicking! I had attacks or in my head I think seizures. I am so scared! My family is going through alot and I am convinced of a tumor. I wanna go to the ER but I am panicking.

Also went to the eye doctor 3 years ago because I thought it was a tumor since I have floaters, he mentioned they were harmless and checked my eyes. I also get random vision sensibility and headaches when I am stressed. It is weird it all came back😪 How did you all know of your tumors? I cannot calm down!

[janeths466]

Also realized I have been using my phone alot, and after my arm started hurting. I use it for hours at night. My vision gets spotty sometimes and I get hot and scared recently. I have been worried for my mom, my dad who went to the ER after mom was released. But all these symtpoms make sense to me. And I am convinced it is a tumor. Even if I am 21. So similar to the other guy that had seizures mistake for panic attacks. Even though I do worry alot unlike him. I have been on edge with my moms apparent cancerous tumor, my dad in the hospital, me going to university. Could I have had this for 7 years and its barely making compliactions?

[Cariad1956]

Hi Tania. I'm 63 now and I used to go through a lot of these anxieties in my past. I found none of my complaints were actual physical conditions, it was just worry about 'what if'.

The best advice I received was 'if you think you have a condition, you will waste your life worrying needlessly about it and you will bring on other mental based conditions like anxiety'. I used to be a radio transmitter engineer and back in the 1960's we were told to be careful of being too close to equipment. The same goes for mobile or cell phones. They would give me a headache when I use them so I use a Bluetooth earpiece now. They give out radio waves like a microwave oven and we know what that does to food. The oven gives out 800 watts of power, a mobile between 0.2 and 2 watts so the effect is not as bad. We are brought up these days to think we are invincible, but we're not. That means we worry about the slightest aches and pains and we don't need to. We do need to be aware of anything long term and its effect on us should be kept in a diary, but if I were you I would 'lighten up' and live your life. Eat healthy, exercise and keep phone use to a minimum, including screen time. Best regards