Once again, I was greatly disappointed with a neurologist who purports to specialize in MS. When I moved across the country, I left a very good neurologist at USC, but felt reassured by her recommendation of a specialist near my new location. Sadly, he was on his way out the door, taking a new job with the FDA in Washington. I saw the doctor who took his place but he moved to general neurology and no longer sees MS patients. Now, in this revolving door so-called clinic, the most recent neuro saw me, didn't show much interest in what I was trying to communicate, didn't see me walk (or time my walk) or check my reflexes, or address what I told her about lack of sensation in my feet or...or...or.... She didn't respond to my concern about a slow steady decline in my abilities. She asked if I had had any relapses, I said no, none that meet the criteria, and that was it. According to her, I am still relapsing/remitting even though my strongest exacerbation was decades before I was diagnosed, and yet, I slowly lose ground. I left, my anger rising. I've now seen five different neurologists in central Virginia and two in southern California, and only one has shown an interest in my problems...the others seem to communicate that because of my age, my complaints are trivial. A sort of "what do you expect? you are old" ...and I feel dismissed, diminished, and alienated. Fortunately, by the next time I am scheduled at the so-called MS clinic, I will have let got of my anger or there may be a new neurologist in place.
Now, as for my still-healing ankle: the incision is finally closing though I still must apply wound care get and bandage daily. The edema is still problematic but somewhat helped by a compression stocking. There is still constant low level pain at the site, and sometimes pain that is localized elsewhere on the shin. I suppose the latter pain is reflected somehow from the site of the injury. I do notice that the right ankle remains weaker than the other, with a tendency to briefly weaken when I have been walking and moving about for several hours outside. I suppose this may continue for a long time yet since the last xrays showed the bone not quite filled in around the screws holding everything in place. But all in all, the ankle is finally coming back but I still don't know if I will every walk without a limp again. If that turns out to be the case, I will start signing myself "gimpy."