Hi i have severe depression and am looking to chat with people new or old on here, need to start talking with people. Lets help each other.

[Gary1972]

[lauren1986]

hi whats on ure mind ?

[rabida in reply to lauren1986]

each & every night I feel some lonely, a nice dream without any partner, break my sleep within two or three hours. rest night without sleep and wait for morning. I don't know how I can overcome the situation

[Gary1972]

Feel really teary and worthless today, our family has massive stuff going on and i feel as in one way or another it is all my fault. Upset and down.

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Hi Gary - this is my only outlet - as I don't go out to socialise - to traumatising for me, prefer the safety net of a keyboard and screen, than face to face in crowds. I don't mind one to one but hate crowds

[lauren1986]

why do u feel its ure fault gary?

[Gary1972]

Thanks no-one and Lauren for messaging, I got diagnosed with severe Osteoarthritis of my hip and because of it had to stop my job as a self employed courier, these two things combined made start to feel down, one because i felt to young for this and the other my pride and dignity of being a working man and providing for my family had gone, now i came to accept this or i should say muddle by like jim royle slumped on the sofa, then hammer blow after hammer blow, our landlord wants his house back in 6 weeks and we can't use private renting again as we have no guarantor, so we are in the lap of the council gods as to go into temporary housing and if lucky maybe get a house at some stage, now again i feel had my health not got bad then i would be earning and we could private rent, the stress it is putting us under is immense, now in all this i have a gorgeous wife and 2 toddlers 1 & 2 both who obviously are picking up on things, my wife also has her 10 yr old son who has a very complex disability that affects more behavioural issues for him and a few physical, this has affected him loads, also my mum is very poorly and whilst i know it is not my fault i know on top of her health she worries like mad about me, i also have a 10 yr old son who i have had no contact with for nearly a yr, a long list and all hit us at once, i truly feel devastated by all this and i hope you may understand why i have truly got to the lowest point ever. I could go on but above i think is quite a start, also the depression gene runs in my family, i started my anti depressants today and have been referred for counselling, i think i have muddled by for many years in low mood and different feelings this is the time i believe that has hit home how low i am. Massive thanks if you read this, hope to speak soon.

[Suzie40]

Hi Gary, it's lovely to meet you.

Do you stand a better chance of being housed sooner based on your step son's needs?

I'm so sorry that things seem to be going so badly for you. It must be a tremendous strain. Do come on here and chat, everyone's very friendly x

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Hi Gary and welcome to the site.

Its not your fault. You didn't ask to be ill but it does sound like you are doing your best to cope with things. You didn't deliberately do anything to cause the situation you are in did you? Hold on to this thought and remember you can only do the best that you can at that time.

Bev x

[annie87]

Hi we are always here for each other on Here that's the good thing about this website we all kind of know how the other1 feels. Depression is an awful thing but a problem shared is a problem halved. Your doctor, psychologist etc should be able to get you a letter to get houses in a permanent home as this is affecting your mental health. My friend done it and got full points now She's in a housing executive house the rent is cheap and she will never be asked to leave. Hope you get sorted all the best keep us informed please x

[SueBeeSue]

Hi Gary. Lovely to meet you. Yeh, this site is great for chatting with people who really understand what it's like to have depression.

You sound as though you are really going through tough times just now. All you've said really shows what a loving caring family man you are. How lucky your wife and children are to have such a lovely husband/father, that's what really matters you know.

I do hope the advice given by others helps you with your immediate housing issue.

Try not to be so hard on yourself. There was a post only the other day about how guilt is a huge issue for folk with depression. Something I totally relate to. I beat myself up all the time. But you know Gary none of this is your fault. You've said you are a young chap and you know, you have so much to look forward to as your children grow - such wonderful times ahead.

You mention you've only just started taking medication. I found it took a week or so to kick in for me, so hopefully you'll be feeling the benefis soon and with your counselling hopefully things will start to look brighter for you soon too.

You take care and be kind to yourself. Hugs. Sue xx