I had BM back in early Feb. I spent 9 days in intensive care, another week on a ward and was then discharged. To nothing! No plan or any idea what or how my recovery would be. I then (as soon as i could walk to a friends car!)went to see my GP who thankfully was knowledgeable and understanding of my condition. I also self refered myself back to the physiotherapy unit at hospital and between us we have established some structure to my recovery. I am aware that I am somewhat fortunate with my recovery in that I am able to walk small distances outside and do my physio excercises 4 times a day and have now been given the ok to go swimming and also have been referred to the gym to aid my progress. So externally things are improving. Unfortunately internally my recovery is much slower. I have constant pressure all over my head, get dizzy for about 10 seconds each time i get up, my short term memory is shocking! I cant concentrate, I get my words mixed up, struggle to find words, and my sense of frustration is increasing. Both at these things that i now have and the situation in general). I have become snappy and occassionally very unpleasant to my other half and 13yr old daughter. I have no filter or cut off valve and this makes it even more frustrating as normally im a normal relaxed man and i hate what im doing to my family. They are amazingly understanding and supportive but there is only so much anyone can take. I know that the biggest factor to my recovery is time. I attend a local holistic centre for relaxing techniques and am waiting to see a counsellor to see if there is anything they can help with. I was wondering if anybody else was struggling emotionally (i dont feel ive yet accepted whats happened to me yet) and if they are what are they doing about it. I have spoken to the nurses on the meningitis now phoneline who are great but was wondering what else may be out there to help? Has anyone had similar problems and how did you cope? Anyone a partner of someone with advice. Any help would be appreciated as things are not getting better yet and we are struggling with it all.